i need help

[jayeye]

i have been on pain killer for about five years....i have had it under controll up untill about 6 months ago...i was taking about 4-7, 7.5 vics...now i'm up to 300mgs oxy/roxy.

I know i have to stop but i dont know what the best way to do it is.  i have some suboxen and i have some xanax and i now both will help with withdrawl....but im afraid i might be to far gone and i need rehab.

i guess i want to know if you think it can be beat by locking yourself up and just going thru it...take a few subs (not long term maybe like first 4 days) and follow the thomas recipe.

or am i so far gone at this point that my only real shot at recovory is rehab...help im at the end of my  rope...i dont want to be a slave any more...i want to be happy without getting high.....i want to love something other then getting high.

thoughts

[jayeye]

its feels really good to know you guys are here to support me through this....even thouhg you have no idea who i am...you guys truley are all heros in your own ways.

after days and days of not stop thinking of what im going to do here is what im going with
I am going to try it myself......i spoke to a pshyciatris and was totally honest with her...im not sure if she is the right one for what i want to do but we'll see i meet with her on the 6th...i know im going to need a little mental help on my way down.....i am allowed to take a week off monday the 5th-friday-6th.....friday the 2nd is going to be my last pill...i plan on taking subs for the first 4-5 days....im going to take them saturday sunday monday and maybe tuesday tamparing as i go....i know its going to be hard an im going to post daily maybe hourly lol.

im not going to kid myself tho if it doesnt work and i show weakness and break im going to be checking myself in.....the follwoing monday i will contact my HR deparment and tell them i need to take med leave...like i said im done being a slave..i want this out of my life once and for all so i can finally have a life.......i will keep this thread updated

thanks again guys

hey sunshine hows it going today....its day 8 congrats!!!!

is the pain gone?

[sunshine1109]

You can do this, I to took Vicoprofen 7.5mg up to 15 a day and about 6 -2 mg bars of xanax for 10 yrs..i myself ended up in a 3 mth rehab I tried to taper on my own but I was pretty messed up with the combo I was taking but I am on day 325 clean and I am so happy and blessed to have my life back...if you truly want this and have made up your mind to fight this addiction which obviously you have or I wouldnt be writing this to you then you have made the first and most important step of all..read cantdothisanymore's post and see all the love and support from all the people on here who have been where you are and truly care...we are here for you if you decide you are ready to begin this journey....Sunshine

[Cantdothisanymore]

i have been taking 20 vics 7/750 for ten years. I had surgery 7 weeks ago on my ankle and just more pills. i am done. the w/ds are gone for me. my problem is the cravings.  read my post - losing my resolve - i have been typing and worrying all day. it is my time to rest. i do not want to abandon you but at the moment my strenght is lapsing. I will be back with my mind rested shortly ready to beguile you all with my wisdom and wit but for now I must say peace out.  please read my post and see all the wonderful people who have gotten me here to day 7.

[jayeye]

so im not that much worse of then you were just 7 days ago.  wow that must have took a lot of power to go thru it.

did you have to call out of work?  if so how long did you stay out for?  are the wd's gone?  how long where they there for?

sorry for all the questions. like i said im tired of being an addict and hearing storeis of people who have been thru it give me streagnth.

nobody knows what its like until they go throw it...nobody knows how hard it really is

i also posted this like 3 times by accident sorry guys

[Cantdothisanymore]

I am only on day 7 of wd from 20 vics aday for ten years. It's hard. Not gonna lie. I am no expert. I am going cold turkey and it *****. I had nothing other than pure hatred of my addiction to get through these last 7 days - no sub or xanax - and i wish I had but read my story "losing my resolve" on these pages and see how these folks here have kept me from making a vic run!!!! i took my dog and daughter to the park today SOBER and I ENJOYED it. My God ...you can do this whichever path you choose.  Stay with us.