When will I feel normal again?

[hopeless1976]

Me and my husband are both addicted to Roxycodone. We have both decided to quit cold turkey. He has a legitimate script but since we both abuse them..(he takes about 10 a day and I take about 4-5 a day) his script always runs out early and then we are left calling people to find them or any kind of opiate for that matter..vicodin, norco, lortab, percs, oxy's..anything. We have 3 children at home also. We both feel like we can not function without them. The first thing we do when we wake up is pop pills so that we can function. I feel worthless without them. Well... we decided to quit together and be each others support system, this is not easy for 2 pill junkies. We took our last pills on Friday morning when we woke up..which was Jan. 2nd. The withdrawal symptoms had already started to set in by Friday evening. The worst part is the leg pain, which is unbearable. One thing that did help the leg pain is icy hot and ben gay. The next unbearable symptom is insomnia. We both have jobs and can not function without sleep. Today is day 3 for us. Day 2 was the worst so far. I cried all day with the feeling of hopelessness. Again, the leg pain and insomnia are horrible. I have a friend that brought over a xanax and that helped me sleep. Today is day 3, its almost 10am and my hubby finally fell asleep for the first time in 3 days at 7am. I sat and rubbed his feet which put him to sleep. Im sorry this is so long, but I just want to know.. when will I feel like myself again, when will I have energy again( I feel like it takes everything out of me just to walk to the bathroom). I WANT to do this. I can get pills anytime and I DONT want them, I just want this horrible pain and depression and fatigue to go away. Like I said, this is day 3 1/2 for us.. are we starting to get over the worst of it yet? When will we have our own energy back, when will we be able to sleep? I'm starting to lose hope.

[PleaseDont]

Please don't!  I'm on day two myself and have been where you are before.  This is my second time quitting cold turkey and absolutely hate myself for getting wrapped back up in this garbage all over again after being off them.  So stupid!
Reading this column and about your situation has inspired me and made me realize that I am not alone in this struggle.  I'm right there with you sweating and shaking - not wanting to get out of bed.
I own a small business and have blown so much money over the last two years on roxys that I just can't take it any more.  It's hard enough keeping our heads above water with the current state of the economy.  I've been shooting myself in the foot and making life so much more difficult than it needed to be.  I'm done and pissed off enough to get off pills for good.
Your story and daily updates have helped encourage me to follow you and your husband down the path you're on.  Going through this a second time is just as bad as the first time I went through it.  I hate these pills!
The withdrawals do continue to get better!  Your energy will come back.  Day 5 is so much better than day 4!  Please realize that tomorrow will be better.  I'm just as scared as you are but I know that it will all be worth it.  You've got people here that don't even know you that are rooting for you.  Keep your chin up and let us know how you're doing.

[hopeless1976]

Yes, I'm feeling massive anxiety, it's driving me nuts. I know how badly I really want a pill, but I wont do it. I would let myself down and my hubby and kids too much. It's crazy, his addiction was worse than mine, and he seems to be doing better than me..how is that?? Well, it could be that I also got my period today which always gives me a horrible backache and irritability. I know I can do this, the temptation is just killing me, but I'm hanging in there. I read some stories that it takes months to have energy and that horrifies me.. I want my energy back, I miss that way more than the high.

[Dave2824]

Hang in there! Are you feeling anxiety? I seriously would consider going to your Dr and telling him about this.  Even if he prescribes something for you , he will keep it temporary - and whatever it is that he prescribes ( Xanax, Klonopin, Lorazapam etc) it is better to take that for a short while than putting yourself at risk of going back to the opiates!
Try it.  What could it possibly hurt?

[feelingblue222]

You have come too far.  You are where I wish I was right now.  You are days away from turning the corner.  Please stay strong and do not get more pills.  You will not even feel that good about the high from pills as you will be guilty.  Think about how great you will feel on day 7, 10 etc.  You can do this.  Do not let the mind tricks play with you.

[worried878]

know the feeling..melting into the couch is an awful feeling as i am an on the go type person...i would have to do rocket shots to get to work everyday..i even thought about if i got fired i wouldnt care cos i was soooooo tired..but i made it and kept my job..sometimes i dont know how i did it!  now i totally have no desire for caffeine anymore which is strange..not that i was ever a huge coffee drinker but now i dont even drink it at all...just lost my taste for it but still have a diet coke every now and then

moving helps..getting up and moving i mean...walking, working out, yoga, whatever activity i could do..even cleaning out a closet would help me...it was hard to get up but once i did i felt so much better....

i had the opposite problem as many have insomnia during wds and after..i had some sorta sleeping sickness..slept like 12 hours a day..it was ridiculous and i started feeling like i didnt have a life..my friends missed me and other than work and things i had to do..i did nothing it seemed...one day..at about 2 months clean i studied the thomas recipe and took everything as directed in the recommended amounts and started going to the gym daily..i have always worked out but i had let it slide due to lack of energy....i had all the aminos and stuff but did not take near as much as the recipe calls for...and that is when i discovered i must be dopamine deficient cos the tyrosine helped me so much..i know some people say that the recipe is a pile of poop but i swear it helped me...do everything u can to make it thru this phase as it will pass..but it took a while for me..good luck to u and keep posting

[hopeless1976]

Well, day 4 1/2 and I'm going insane. I want that feeling back. I want to pick up that phone and just get some pills. I have no energy, this is just making me miserable. I know if I get pills, I will have to start all over. I've made it this far, I know I can do this... but there is that little demon inside me telling me I need my roxy's to function. I am getting really scared.