When will I feel normal again?

[hopeless1976]

Me and my husband are both addicted to Roxycodone. We have both decided to quit cold turkey. He has a legitimate script but since we both abuse them..(he takes about 10 a day and I take about 4-5 a day) his script always runs out early and then we are left calling people to find them or any kind of opiate for that matter..vicodin, norco, lortab, percs, oxy's..anything. We have 3 children at home also. We both feel like we can not function without them. The first thing we do when we wake up is pop pills so that we can function. I feel worthless without them. Well... we decided to quit together and be each others support system, this is not easy for 2 pill junkies. We took our last pills on Friday morning when we woke up..which was Jan. 2nd. The withdrawal symptoms had already started to set in by Friday evening. The worst part is the leg pain, which is unbearable. One thing that did help the leg pain is icy hot and ben gay. The next unbearable symptom is insomnia. We both have jobs and can not function without sleep. Today is day 3 for us. Day 2 was the worst so far. I cried all day with the feeling of hopelessness. Again, the leg pain and insomnia are horrible. I have a friend that brought over a xanax and that helped me sleep. Today is day 3, its almost 10am and my hubby finally fell asleep for the first time in 3 days at 7am. I sat and rubbed his feet which put him to sleep. Im sorry this is so long, but I just want to know.. when will I feel like myself again, when will I have energy again( I feel like it takes everything out of me just to walk to the bathroom). I WANT to do this. I can get pills anytime and I DONT want them, I just want this horrible pain and depression and fatigue to go away. Like I said, this is day 3 1/2 for us.. are we starting to get over the worst of it yet? When will we have our own energy back, when will we be able to sleep? I'm starting to lose hope.

[yelsea]

Don't take xanex to help yourself get off pills! Dope sick *****, and depending on how much you did for how long, it varies, but I have never heard it lasting over a week, usually around 4 to 5 days, so you're almost there. For your body and your mind to fully recover though, it will take two years. You won't be dope sick for two years, but the damage we do to our heads and bodies takes a good minute. It's awesome that you are sticking to it though, even though you are so sick. That is very admirable. Especially since you have kids. My brother is doing some **** in his house that I don't think is very healthy for his children to witness. I'm glad you aren't going to let that happen. Roxys were the hardest opiate for me to put down, and the sickness *****, but focus on how much you will gain by going through this pain. You will be better parents, better people in general. Keep it up! You never have to use again.

[GabbersMommy22]

Congrats on your progress! Day 3 really is a huge accomplishment! I also was taking 6-10 roxicodone per day. The first 2-4 days were the hardest then by day 5 I did have my energy back. I also have two small children at home (ages 4 and 7 months) that was by far the hardest part was not feeling well and not hardly having the energy to do anything! I know from expirience although my hubby didnt use with me, HE was by far my biggest support system. Just keep in mind YOU WILL feel much better soon! Life is SOOOO much better after the WDs are over. It is so nice to have steady moods and energy without having to depend on pills. I would be weary about taking too many of the xanax they also can be addicting. I know a few things that really helped me was hot baths, eat a bunch of banannas, it will help not only with the leg cramps but the diarea as well. At night I took Advil PM or Tylenol PM I think advil pm works a little better with the leg cramps and it will help you sleep. Just remember hun the WDs ARE TEMPORARY. Life is so much better once they are over! Keep up the good work and keep comming on here and posting. Everyone on here is so helpful. I dont know what I would have done without everyone here.

[disFUNctional]

I have heard that the pot can make the anxiety worse so be careful.  I did coke wayyyyy back when too.  It was easy to quit compared to this.  I finally ate something on day 4 and it helped.  Eat oatmeal or cream of wheat.  It is easy on the tummy and will give you the energy.  I would stay away from energy drinks but that is just me.  Good luck sweetie and keep posting.
Love,
Kim

[hopeless1976]

I plan on sticking with it..i should say..WE plan on sticking with it. I just can't wait to have my own energy again. Not to have to take a pill for everything I do..My thinking was.."clean the house..take a pill, go to work...take a pill, take the kids to do something..take a pill" etc...
I have very strong will power. I used to smoke crack and do cocaine in my 20's before I had kids and there was one day when I said "screw this ****, Im never touching it again" and that was a breeze compared to this devil..opiates are pure evil. My mind tells me..Im done but the physical pain is another thing. I just wish it was all mental but its not. I dont know if you smoke pot but Ive read on the forums that a lot of people said that helped them, considering that I havent ate ANYTHING in 3 days because of the nausea. i still have the leg pain, which drives me insane, but it is better today. The anxiety kicked in today, my heart is racing. I was considering getting an energy drink to help me get up and do something, but the way my heart is racing, I think it would give me a heart attack..lol.
Thanks for your encouragement and good luck to you too. I have seen people on here that were taking 50 80mg oxy's a day and quit so if they can do it, me and my hubby surely can :)

[disFUNctional]

I have chills as I read that, we could be the same person.  I know EXACTLY how you feel.  It will get better IF you stick with it.
Talk to me anytime
Love,
Kim

[hopeless1976]

Thank you for that response, that really gives me hope that I may be able to start functioning again. I called into work today, said that I had the flu and I think I might tomorrow too. I just want to get up and clean the house and quit lying to my kids(they think we have the flu..what a joke). we are definitely pushing ourselves to this. 5 years on this opiate devil has cost us so much money. I am just scared that I dont even remember what it feels like to be "normal" and clean. And congrats to you for day 7.. that seems so far away right now but I hope and pray that everyday gets easier.