Yet another time off tramadol and other opes

[Gettingcleanagain1221]

Currently I am about 3 weeks out since I took my last tramadol. I had a bit of a relapse where I took some darvocets about a week ago. I still seem to be edgy and having sleep problems but it's not every night. I have been to this rodeo a couple times before and I know that it takes time. This forum has always been great inspiration as I have "lurked". I have to make it stick this time or could lose everything. My family is sick of the mood cycles. I can attest to everyone that life is much better off the pills. I guess I want to know how people make it stick long term. I've been in counceling and they said oh ur ADHD. Here's so
e speed. Well I took that for a while and then threw them away bc I knew where that was going. NA meetings just make me think more about drugs and u can meet dealers there.  Anybody have advice?  My real motivation has been my wife and child bc she gave me an ultimatum. I just want some support to stay straight. Positive support would be greatly appreciated!

[Gettingcleanagain1221]

Hey bro,  I'm up for going but I went with my brother there who was bad off on the Oxys. I actually met a guy there who I used to buy from. I did hear great stories but that is why I am hesitant. Yeah I know that nobody wants tramdols that's for sure. I've just flushed all that I had and told the dr to put in my chart that Im allergic. I we t to the trouble of pissing off my hook ups for the hydros or oxys so that they don't want to mess with me (unless they get desperate for cash bc you know our addictive minds work). My psyc. Agreed when I talked to him bc he sees the court ordered folks there. I'm still considering
and I have to do something different. My wife kicked me out to withdrawal initially and give me a reality check. It's just been hard bc the damn trams get u like an antidepressant unlike coming off of a hydro binge. Anyway, I may give it a whirl.  I would like to protect my career. Is it truly anonymous?  Peace and thank u for the quick reply! I
slow typing on my phone.....

[BornofOsiris]

Hey man, you should reconsider NA. Yes it may make you think about the drugs buuuut at the same time you hear some of the most inspirational storys and you meet some people who are there for you anytime. Plus i dont know how many dealers just show up at NA meetings...I would say meeting a dealer there would be pretty rare, especially with tramadol. (not to many sell it cause its not really worth anything). Trust me man NA is a safe place to go, plus there is nothing like support from someone who has been there done that. Be truthfull with yourself, do you honestly believe you will meet a dealer there? Or is that just a excuse not to go...cause you know how us addicts will make the smallest excuse not to get help or get clean. Much love

Dallas

[Gettingcleanagain1221]

Oh I didn't mention dosage. I took about 2 tramadols a day along with other opiates like hydros or oxy (occasionally-$hit$ expensive!!). I didn't take the regular opes every day but still frequently enough to effect me mentally. I think that in some ways I need to quit obsessing and let time heal.....sorry for rambling!  I have to get it out bc my wife is tired of this back and forth process which is why I went to therapy.