hey u need to change ur name to "gonnaquit4good" lol.....to think of all the lies and stupis **** i did to get pills omg......makes me sick....the money the time spent looking...i guess the thing that bothers me the most is that i WOULD NOT attend any of my kids games or any other type of "function" unless i had pills......now i dont miss a one...i have alot of lost time with my kids espically to make up for and im loving every minute of it..........u can do this taper...i beleive in u...hang in there....love u and god bless u
I started going to all these relatives I had hardly ever seen and taking a little bit of whatever pain pill they had around. The funny thing is I started realizing how many people have been on so many narcs for so long- it's an absolute scourge on America
i knew i was anaddict when i stole the pills from other peoples medicine cabinets. sometimes i would plan it out by getting generic tylenol that was the same shape and size as the vics and exchange the whole bottle. the poor people who needed the pain pills I took.
chasing pills all the time is really annoying....if you have a full time job it is just too time consuming trying to figue out how ur gonna get em all the time....u get really creative!
I probably would have been licking the ground to be sure I got all the residue, and I wouldn't have dried it off, I would have put it in my mouth immediately and chewed it to be sure I got as much into my system as fast as possible! I probably also would have taken 3 or 4 with me, not one, and taken it 20 minutes before food arrived so it was on an empty stomach and more would be absorbed quicker!! I do like that feeling! I totally don't understand people who take 1/2 a pain pill and say how much they hate the out-of-control feeling it gives them. I am a control freak, but I love the feeling!
I haven't taken any in 3 weeks now, but have had months and years clean between relapses since 1989. Using never lasts more than a month or two anymore because I am so tired of trying to keep an adequate supply around - and I feel so much better physically when I'm clean - even with pain. (It never gets any better from narcs anymore anyway, I just THINK I feel better because it makes me feel better emotionally for awhile.)
I would find myself leaving my handy pill bottle at home I would get to work and actually have to drive home and go get it...just had to be sure it was in my pocket at all times......there have many others but would rather not make myself look that bad as to bring those up!..also when I started taking so many that my scrip would not cover them all....I took money out of my 401k and also a 1200 dollar equity line....I knew I did one of these...but like to died when i saw I had done both...I did not remember doing it