Yikes - Help

[tavia14]

Hi All- I am havingthe hardest time again. OK I am 3 days clean again!! Key word again! And all I feel like doing is using! I feel fine had some minor wds for two days and today I feel great so instead of embracing the day my mind is saying "alrighty then you are done with the minor wds so how bout using for a day again?" What a vicious cycle this is!! My rational is that I am having major surgery in August so I will need pain medication after that so why not use off and on until then? I am a mess! Damn!!!! OK well I am not going to use today!~ Damn this is so hard :(

[tired_of_oxy]

Hi Tavia,

That's the addict trying to suck you back in. Girl your one of the strongest I've met on here. Instead of worrying about August, forget about it - just for today right? In August you can have your hubby dispense the meds to you and fact is although we are addicts we are human and almost all of us will require pain relief for legitimate reasons at one time or another in our lives. But as long as we have someone trustworthy to give them as prescribed to us were ok and we don't lose clean time for that.

You should give yourself credit for getting back up so quickly and getting back on track. Some of us (ME) went MONTHS before we finally realized what we were doing to ourselves and the people around us. I know your kicking yourself for this slip but don't dwell on it. We change can't what's happened but we CAN change the here and now. Stay strong and post lots. You'll have another 99 and beyond in no time. I have no doubt in my mind about that. You are and always will be a huge inspiration to me. You can do this, you ARE doing it! ((HUGS!!!!))

[vicki595]

And do you have pills in the house?