Great post! Took the words right outta my mouth!
I suggest making a total commitment and cutting that script source by telling the script writer that you no longer want it any more. If you're addicted they'll him/her that. Once you've cut that source so there isn't a chance of starting back up, then the way is cleared for u to concentrate on getting your life back by going through detox.
This page has the Thomas Recipe listed below. Get those items and follow the directions. Stay on here every day. We've all been thru it. We will support you, answer questions, help you along- one day at a time. Keep posting. Don't give up. This is doable.