any mind altering chemical is a drug. I think we like to say we are "clean" but if stop using vicodins or percs and still smoke pot or use booze we are not really clean.
progress not profection.
Hang in there.
I'm interested in maybe you need to be back on your antidepressants. It sounds like you were having some real emotional pain that was being handled in part by your prescribed medications. I think you need to SLOW DOWN. and get some good advice. I still am having problems with your taking yourself off all your meds like that and making it through those bad withdrawals.
Like sarah says above you do need to realize that you need help. AA/NA, therapy someone else other than yourself to give you some feedback.
Everything can be addictive or used compulsively by an addict. Talk to some people. And great first step by writing a post on this forum. Good work. Stop now. You can easily overdose on alcohol and die of alcohol poisoning.
This is very common to switch addictions. I hope you will check into some type of aftercare. You need to find out why you are numbing yourself up. Aftercare is very vital in our recovery. I hope your DUI was a blessing in disquise. Sometimes it takes this sort of thing to make us realize we are in need of help. Congrats on getting off the pills!!! Stick around here as we understand what you are going thru and will be here to support you.........sara
Cross addition is very common... You think that if you QUIT doing your DOC.. you can subsitute it with something else.. or something that you don't think or never had a problem with...
Alcohol is a DRUG.. MIND ALTERING SUBSTANCE.. and can lead to very serious consequences...You getting a dui is one of the consequences...
May I suggest that you check out your local AA/NA meetings... and get some support..
and... keep posting as this site has been very helpful to many who are struggling...
Take care and God Bless
NorcoQueen