addictive behavior

[unsuspected1]

Hi everyone this is my first post here, kinda nervous. Thing is I found this community while looking up information about my fentynal patch. I just got the script and don't think its working. I had lumbar spinal fussion a week ago and the surgeon put me on 25mcg at discharge from the hospital. This was only done because of the reaction from me when he said he was sending me home on percocet. See I have suffered from pain for so long that I have taken alot of narcs. I don't get relief from alot of them as a result. When I was in the hospital they had to change meds from percocet to dilaudid because percocet didn't work. So now on discharge I got upset when he said I could take that at home. Anyway I was discharged with a script for percocet but I understood I was to go to office for alternative script for fentynal but was not to fill the percs. I agreed and now have the patches,and unfilled percocet script. I am patch #2 now. Ok here's the thing, it's not helping. Sooo I want to take this script to pharmacy and fill it. I know it's addictive behavior because I am waiting for my husband to leave so I can sneak up to pharmacy to get it. Gawed this sucks. I just don't want to be in pain and I don't have anything to take but the patch. I even used the heating pad on the patch even though I know better. I just wanted to get this out because I know its my addiction telling me the patch isnt working and i can just go get the script(even though dr said no if I have patch). If anyone has some insight I would appreciate it. I need to tell someone and if I tell husband he will take the script. Please help...Thanks

[unsuspected1]

Thank you.I want to fill script for the pain relief yes.But I am honest enough to say I didn't want it before because it wasn't working. I was hoping that with the patch it will help. I mentioned my addictive behaviour because I know I will try alot to get relief even if it means lying to my husband(which btw after posting here I told him how I was feeling). He now has the script. I just wanted to share so I could release my fears. Thanks for understanding and being here.

[Penelope14]

I dont have the answer for you but I can tell you that I have detoxed off of percs many times, & I had no health issues, I only used them to mask reality, but I can tell you that everyday without them it does get better, it may not seem like it right now, but it will, hang in their!! Penelope

[Jacqui805]

Well, just so you know, it can take a bit for the patches to kinda "kick in' if you will. If it doesn't work, it's not necessarily the med., in fact, that's a strong one, so it'd be due to the dose.  When one med is switched for another, the milliequivalent dose has to figured and either give the equivalent to the dose of the last med, or increase it accordingly.  That was just meant to be informative by the way, not meant to say you should or should not be on pain meds in the first place.  Have you spoken to your doc about your substance abuse history?  This is pretty important here, and if you haven't, I'd do that.  Whatever you do, do not attempt to get relief by doing anything with the fentanyl patch other than to put it on your body.  In other words, don't suck on it, puncture it, that kinda thing.  For some, the patch system doesn't work well, needing to be changed every two days instead of every three, but since you've just started, that would be hard to determine, and normally, a doc who puts you on this asks for feedback to find the proper dose.  Again, not to say you should or should not be on this, just wanna make it clear here.  Are you wanting to fill the percocet script to get the high, or for pain relief?  Welcome to the forum by the way.

[Raj786]

well, the good thing is that you are aware of your addictive behaviour, you are even delaying the wrong kind of action by checking in here, I am sorry I have had to take narco medications for any kind of pain, I just used them for fun, I don't know about percocet as well. But I know that giving in to your temptation will only cause you harm, see if you can get some more medical advice on this, do anything to remove the pain but drugs which also get you high. One thing I can suggest which won't remove your pain instantly like drugs do but help more in the long term is to try out things like Yoga & other alternative therapies like accupuncture, I have personally seen such things world miracles for people, they could work for you too...!