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okay no question, i was totally going through w/d it just wasnt as servere as it could be because of the dose i take i totally get it now oh my god i mean i was able to come to work but i felt like **** and today i dont feel like that at all i knw its because ive been doin em like 3 weeks straight but never taking big peices.....like i said an 80 last me well 3 days it used to last more....i knw iknw , but today i dont feel like i was dragged here.......but to be honest and im sure no one wants to hear this but i am still going to get a pill on payday but then i wont get another one right after like ive been doin ya knw? like whats that called then recreational use? i did get kind a caught up this last time around i will admit that and if w/d had gotten any worse then what i just felt id be in trouble questions would start to be asked......any comments?
What you said is probably what ALL of us have said. Not me...I can control this...I would NEVER steal....I have only one source! I am 45....have used everything recreationally, alcohol, pot, acid, crank, coke and was never addicted to any of these! Funny how these little fuckers (hydrocodone) snuck up on me and kicked my ***! I have stolen from friends and family's medicine cabinets....how pathetic is that! Could never have imagined I would do that 4 yrs ago! I too had that cocky attitude that I could stop when I want....I couldn't have been more wrong or in heavier denial. Just my opinion...please be careful!
I know I personally wasn't suggesting any lack of intestinal fortitude on your behalf. It's just that, well, here.....I was on a super power med., super power dose, super long time for a pain issue. It did not ever get me "high", no nothing other than pain control. I stopped for several reasons, and while going through w/d, and coming out on the other end, I began to realized that I a) would never have seen before b) wouldn't have believed me if you told me. That is, I started to become so clear, so much more the old me, that I didn't even KNOW WAS GONE! I had no idea, because I wasn't high, or euphoric on it, I didn't know it was effecting me. Everything's so much more intense, enjoyable, and I'm damned glad to have "ME" back. That's kinda one of my points, you may be looking through slightly discolored lenses, that are so subtle, you don't even see it. I did't abuse my meds. nothing like that, but even though I'm in pain now, I'm happier without the junk, and I never would have known how I could be feeling before weaning off.
you make alot of sense...... but see me going to a doctor and say what????????? doc give me something for depression and get hooked on that? or can you get hooked on that? i dont knw....im feeling dizzy right now ....ill be back
okay i hear ya...i hear all of you but you said a year ago how long before it crept up on you how many places did have to get i have only one source my auntie well she has watched me grow up so i call her auntie and i asked her do you think im addicted she said no you would be calling me much more. i mean i hear you guys and i DO see how it creep up on my shoot, a little peice of an 80 woould take me there and then a little more. i used to cut it into 4's now its like those peices are getting bigger, so say iget one friday, sat,sun,mon i want another but i dont need it i will honestly say this past monday is the first time i can say i felt like i needed it was the first time that was all i thought about i mean i have done other drugs ive tried coke i was on that for a minute then crack on that for a minute too but as my children got older and would start to wonder why mommy look like that i stopped always smokin weed heavier each time i even dipped into meth (while in arizona) vics,perks, those i would get if i had went to the doc or dent and stopped those too.....but this i can remember how i started me and my friend were in the car smokin a bowl and she goes here take this it was the tiny peice of a pill she was like dont drink with it so i took it and i felt great then i started asking for them 10, 20 never taken a whole pill until SHE went over bored she is only22 she went to the herion and the crack and broke into peoples houses got caught and now is in rehab april she will be in a half way house and one thing she says to me is....i will smoke weed again one day...so its like i have seen this effect many first hand so why is it so hard to believe that i can control this????????? honestly im not tryin to be rude and i totoally can see where it COULD get outta hand but since you were totally me a year ago...cant you see where im coming from?????? i have only on esource i have asked a couple of peeps that knw do it around my job...but everyone's like nah girl and tell me thay on something to help them get off of them .....but they give me that look like " i wont be resposible for you going over board" iand i respoect them for that but like i said i have one source and even she wont let me get that far i just wont......
I hate to say it, well, hell I don't....but recreational use, is abuse. I know you know it in your own head too. It's just that no one sets about to get into it heavy-duty-style ya know? This **** can snowball before you know it for so many reasons. One of which is slightly even out of your control. At some point, you may decide enough is enough, after you keep on using recreationally, and you've used it to an extent that your brain and body will freak out when you stop. Quit while you're ahead. You can do it. There's no point in doing anyway if it's such a tiny amount and it's no biggy right? If you find that you're using in certain social settings, I'd stay clear of 'em. I'd not get that pill, and if you find that you just can't enjoy yourself without the pills, I'd see a counselor or doc. You may have a chemical imbalance, depression, anxiety, all sorts of issues. Make sense?
Jacqui
Jacqui
I started out as a RECREATIONAL user..
2 1/2 yrs. later it WASN'T fun any more..
i hope you can quit BEFORE you get to that point....
Best of luck....glad you're here.
2 1/2 yrs. later it WASN'T fun any more..
i hope you can quit BEFORE you get to that point....
Best of luck....glad you're here.
I was TOTALLY you almost a year ago - the amount taken (and needed) just seemed to creep up on me. Seems you have an idea of what's acceptable to you as 'recreational use' (as did I). Don't mean to be pessimistic, but when (not if), you go over that - for whatever excuse/reason you tell yourself (One of the only days I took over an 80 was because my nose was plugged and it didn't 'go down' well *rolling eyes*) - be afraid - be very afraid - come back and do whatever necessary to kick it (before it kicks you). Not sure you'll listen (I'd have shaken my head and said 'Nuh uh - not me' too). And when you come back for support and help, I promise to give it without saying 'I told you so'. It's just NOT a recreational drug (in my eyes anyway). Good luck with your decisions :-)
This is a substance ABUSE forum...i imagine most people come here because they question whether or not they have problem...is this what you are wondering?
If so ...hang around for awhile reading posts....
I do know this is how it starts...
you start using a little...the amount slowly creeps up on you... ...I would just get em only on the weekend...lately getting em one after the other...owe her till payday......becoming too much...
these are things YOU posted...
only YOU can decide!!!
hhmmmm.......keep posting....we're here to support you!!!.
If so ...hang around for awhile reading posts....
I do know this is how it starts...
you start using a little...the amount slowly creeps up on you... ...I would just get em only on the weekend...lately getting em one after the other...owe her till payday......becoming too much...
these are things YOU posted...
only YOU can decide!!!
hhmmmm.......keep posting....we're here to support you!!!.
sorry, I'm in a funk....I shouldn't comment honey....those things are crazy addictive. I knew they were when I started. My doctors warned me.....I thought I had it under control, and I got really really f***ed up from them. Aside from the physical withdrawls that ended 2 weeks ago, I'm now battling depression....and it sucks bad. I never saw this coming....ever. So, if you are doing this to catch a buzz, ....I've done alot of drugs in my life, and this was by far the most destructive one I've ever done to me both physically and emotionally....period. Be good to yourself. Please.
Just get off the ******* **** and stay off, soon you will need more and more and more, and boy wait til the W/Ds start. MY GOG>
No, I totally understand. Posting here does help a lot - If I can ever help you out, let me know.
I am on methadone currently because my fiance and I ended up with a debilitating pill habit...now we have been detoxing from the methadone since Aug.'07...we will take our last dose next Thursday...we are very excited/scared/anxious/etc. This forum has been such a major source of support. It is great, I love reading everyones responses and it makes a world of difference to know others are going through what you are.
Best of luck! I hope you get from the forum what you need...keep posting and have a great day!
I am on methadone currently because my fiance and I ended up with a debilitating pill habit...now we have been detoxing from the methadone since Aug.'07...we will take our last dose next Thursday...we are very excited/scared/anxious/etc. This forum has been such a major source of support. It is great, I love reading everyones responses and it makes a world of difference to know others are going through what you are.
Best of luck! I hope you get from the forum what you need...keep posting and have a great day!
no i have been popping em on and off for like 6 months at first i would just get em on the weekend like a weekend extra high to go with my weed but latlely instead getting the one i get another right after or 2 at a time or get one and owe her till payday it was becomeing too much but still not over excessive i dont knw what i want yall to say i just post to clear my head if thats a problem...oh well
yeah, i have a comment...sweetie dont use again, it gets worse everytime. before you know it you are caught in a vicious cycle and in real trouble. it takes more and more, you already see it. dont be a statistic..stop while you can, i mean already have dont start again.
cathy
cathy
Are you just buying another to finish your taper?
I know how debilitating wd can be, but there are some things that help. Ultimately we must all face our demons - are you committed to quitting? You can do this...so many people are here to help.
You have only been taking for 3 weeks ... am I misunderstanding? Probably.
I know how debilitating wd can be, but there are some things that help. Ultimately we must all face our demons - are you committed to quitting? You can do this...so many people are here to help.
You have only been taking for 3 weeks ... am I misunderstanding? Probably.
my only comment is be very, extemely careful and keep posting...I can not say that what you are proposing is a safe thing to do
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