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clonazepam addiction added to yearslong methadone addiction
About a month ago I went through a psychosis. I have been taking 10 mg of methadone for over 14 years (since I quit herion, I have been on it since '91) Since that crisis I have doubled my methadone and added clonazepam to the mix) 0.5 mg twice a day. Is there any way to keep this stable? I can't get off the methadone because I have been on it for years. Together with the 10 mg I take in the morning I also take 150 mg. of Venlafaxine. Before it was just making me more depressed, but now it just scares the hell out of me. Where do I go from here, because the detox of either one scares the hell out of me.
The real problem is of course that all I do now I wonder what to take next to both avoid detox, but at the same time to avoid serotonin syndrome. Yep, I have also been having these crazy migraines that only go away when I sleep 12-14 hours on clonazepam. Usually I end up taking one more half way and that's the one that keeps me from having withdrawals at the end of it. That's how it has been for the last month and a half. The problem is I don't know what scares me more. Living like this or going through detox. When I went through it in prison, I just really wanted to die. So yes detox is for me a fate worse then death.
I dertoxed from methadone in prisone twice, and by far both are the most traumatic experiences. The second time I was already not using heroine and crack anymore (except the last time in prison) When I got out of prison I went back to 10 mg and that has been working fine until a little over a month ago. The trouble started earlier when I tried Ritalin, but after about 4 weeks I figured it was not for me. By then I was already having sleep problems and as a result I ended up psychotic. To calm me down the shrink put me on rivotril on the way to an anti-psychotic. The anti-psychotic went fine for about 3-4 days and then I started to go through withdrawal symptoms, usually starting on Friday's around 1 in the morning. I then had to make it through the rest of the weekend using everything including the kitchen sink. (the kitchen sink, meaning extra methadone) I am allowed to double my methadone from 2 to 4, but the real problem is the rivotril and the venlafaxine (which I cut in half a little over a month ago) As long as I can get off those two, the methadone doesn't really bother me, as I have it on perscription. Today I have only done 1 extra methadone and the last clonazepam I took was last night. Oh, I also have some temazepam I can use for sleeping, but the only night since Monday I didn't take it was last night, when I had the Clonazepam. I know. All junky behavior, and that worries me because I haven't been there in over 14 years.
only you can really know if this medication is effecting your life negatively.
i live in SEVERE pain on daily basis and was put on fentanyl. it really helped with the pain BUT the effect it was having on my personality, my brain was not worth it. i could read on here and read an article and then read it again, not realizing i had already read it until i see i commented on it. in other words, i knew that this amazing drug that was helping my pain better than anything else had done in the past 5 yrs, but i was not going to lose years of life because of it.
are you sick and tired of being sick and tired? being a slave to the clock, doctors, getting your meds however that may be?
if so, make the decision to get off and evaluate your life with a clear mind.
you don't think i was scared to come off 50 mcg of fentanyl (known to be the worst withdrawals)?? yes, i was really scared. today at 3pm i will have made it 7 days.
only you can make the decision and if you decide to get off i would only do one med at a time. prepare yourself because the methodone detox will be long just like the fentanyl.
good luck
i live in SEVERE pain on daily basis and was put on fentanyl. it really helped with the pain BUT the effect it was having on my personality, my brain was not worth it. i could read on here and read an article and then read it again, not realizing i had already read it until i see i commented on it. in other words, i knew that this amazing drug that was helping my pain better than anything else had done in the past 5 yrs, but i was not going to lose years of life because of it.
are you sick and tired of being sick and tired? being a slave to the clock, doctors, getting your meds however that may be?
if so, make the decision to get off and evaluate your life with a clear mind.
you don't think i was scared to come off 50 mcg of fentanyl (known to be the worst withdrawals)?? yes, i was really scared. today at 3pm i will have made it 7 days.
only you can make the decision and if you decide to get off i would only do one med at a time. prepare yourself because the methodone detox will be long just like the fentanyl.
good luck
Hi missfying.
It gets slow out here some times..And we just come and go in waves. OK..Why don't you want to give up your Methadone? I was on this for over 12ys after being on the other opiates..It just lead me to worse addictive behaviors like snorting it with Adderall (which I do not have adhd) so it was like my crank days in the 70s..Then I took a Benzo at night to come down..The same one you are on. I went c/t from all 3 back in 2012 and life has been way much better..Of coarse I have had some bumps on the way, but I will say it was WAY better to deal with this clean & sober..So you have been on it a very long time, but at a low dose..I was way up high and got down to 30mg and jumped. If you want to get off the benzo you should do a nice taper. I would rather see you get off and deal with your Addiction in other ways then using the Methadone..Methadone has many side affects on down the road. SO?? Not sure what is up here, However this is a community full of caring and sharing Souls who pour our heart out to help people going through the detox and work on staying clean..I sure wish you would think about coming off of all of these.
Bless
It gets slow out here some times..And we just come and go in waves. OK..Why don't you want to give up your Methadone? I was on this for over 12ys after being on the other opiates..It just lead me to worse addictive behaviors like snorting it with Adderall (which I do not have adhd) so it was like my crank days in the 70s..Then I took a Benzo at night to come down..The same one you are on. I went c/t from all 3 back in 2012 and life has been way much better..Of coarse I have had some bumps on the way, but I will say it was WAY better to deal with this clean & sober..So you have been on it a very long time, but at a low dose..I was way up high and got down to 30mg and jumped. If you want to get off the benzo you should do a nice taper. I would rather see you get off and deal with your Addiction in other ways then using the Methadone..Methadone has many side affects on down the road. SO?? Not sure what is up here, However this is a community full of caring and sharing Souls who pour our heart out to help people going through the detox and work on staying clean..I sure wish you would think about coming off of all of these.
Bless
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