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I am kinda on day 8 ( I slipped up over the weekend) if that counts then it's only day 2 over again but without the terrible day 2 symptoms. I too am falling into a really deep depression. In Sept. I lost my mother to cancer and I was her caretaker. When it came time for her to go to hospice I was left with an addicts playground of drugs. About 7 years ago I was a heroin addict so I really know that the s**** shoulda been flushed. But I just couldn't deal. She was my best friend. She was only 57 years old. Now I think that because of all the use of pills has caused me to supress all my feelings of what happened. I can barely get through the day. My emotions are just sooo low. I have so much guilt. No one knows that I was on them. I think that's one of the worst feelings-so alone. The only person that I could tell is gone forever. Then last night before bed my husband said something so profound, he said You know I'll always be here for you, to pick you up, I'll never let you fall. How can I lie to someone that I has trusted me and that I love so much.Sorry ya'll I guess I just needed to vent a little. Gotta get the kids off to school now. Thanks.
I know how you feel - I lost my mom to cancer too at the age of 57. And I know I haven't grieved properly, 5 years later!
Don't hesitate to seek out whatever sources you need to to work on the grieving issues. I have started, and we'll see how it goes. But you will have a much harder time moving forward if you don't get these issues resolved.
You can make it. I know you miss your mom. There's not an hour that goes by each and every day that I don't think of mine - again 5 years later. I can start crying at any given minute if I give in to it. In fact, in the beginning, I don't think my grief was as bad as it became after more and more months of her being gone. This will sound a little crazy, but at first, it was like she was gone on a little vacation and would be back, but as time dragged on, her absence started becoming more and more pronounced, and almost unbearable.
Please get the outside help you need - you can't do it all yourself - shouldn't have to, and it's okay if you can't. I came to this realization a few days ago. I can't deal with it all myself and I need professional guidance to do so.
Don't hesitate to seek out whatever sources you need to to work on the grieving issues. I have started, and we'll see how it goes. But you will have a much harder time moving forward if you don't get these issues resolved.
You can make it. I know you miss your mom. There's not an hour that goes by each and every day that I don't think of mine - again 5 years later. I can start crying at any given minute if I give in to it. In fact, in the beginning, I don't think my grief was as bad as it became after more and more months of her being gone. This will sound a little crazy, but at first, it was like she was gone on a little vacation and would be back, but as time dragged on, her absence started becoming more and more pronounced, and almost unbearable.
Please get the outside help you need - you can't do it all yourself - shouldn't have to, and it's okay if you can't. I came to this realization a few days ago. I can't deal with it all myself and I need professional guidance to do so.
I know how you feel - I lost my mom to cancer too at the age of 57. And I know I haven't grieved properly, 5 years later!
Don't hesitate to seek out whatever sources you need to to work on the grieving issues. I have started, and we'll see how it goes. But you will have a much harder time moving forward if you don't get these issues resolved.
You can make it. I know you miss your mom. There's not an hour that goes by each and every day that I don't think of mine - again 5 years later. I can start crying at any given minute if I give in to it. In fact, in the beginning, I don't think my grief was as bad as it became after more and more months of her being gone. This will sound a little crazy, but at first, it was like she was gone on a little vacation and would be back, but as time dragged on, her absence started becoming more and more pronounced, and almost unbearable.
Please get the outside help you need - you can't do it all yourself - shouldn't have to, and it's okay if you can't. I came to this realization a few days ago. I can't deal with it all myself and I need professional guidance to do so.
Don't hesitate to seek out whatever sources you need to to work on the grieving issues. I have started, and we'll see how it goes. But you will have a much harder time moving forward if you don't get these issues resolved.
You can make it. I know you miss your mom. There's not an hour that goes by each and every day that I don't think of mine - again 5 years later. I can start crying at any given minute if I give in to it. In fact, in the beginning, I don't think my grief was as bad as it became after more and more months of her being gone. This will sound a little crazy, but at first, it was like she was gone on a little vacation and would be back, but as time dragged on, her absence started becoming more and more pronounced, and almost unbearable.
Please get the outside help you need - you can't do it all yourself - shouldn't have to, and it's okay if you can't. I came to this realization a few days ago. I can't deal with it all myself and I need professional guidance to do so.
OHHH, YOUR HUSBAND SOUNDS REALLY SWEET. AND MY GUESS is he already suspects it. maybe you should be honest with him so he can help you..just a thought. and yes the slip up counts. all the things you describe are perfectly normal for what u are going through. you probably did greive properly since you were medicated. i understand she was your best freind my mom is too. lol we are here time you need to vent.
cathy
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