OHHH, YOUR HUSBAND SOUNDS REALLY SWEET. AND MY GUESS is he already suspects it. maybe you should be honest with him so he can help you..just a thought. and yes the slip up counts. all the things you describe are perfectly normal for what u are going through. you probably did greive properly since you were medicated. i understand she was your best freind my mom is too. lol we are here time you need to vent.
cathy
I know how you feel - I lost my mom to cancer too at the age of 57. And I know I haven't grieved properly, 5 years later!
Don't hesitate to seek out whatever sources you need to to work on the grieving issues. I have started, and we'll see how it goes. But you will have a much harder time moving forward if you don't get these issues resolved.
You can make it. I know you miss your mom. There's not an hour that goes by each and every day that I don't think of mine - again 5 years later. I can start crying at any given minute if I give in to it. In fact, in the beginning, I don't think my grief was as bad as it became after more and more months of her being gone. This will sound a little crazy, but at first, it was like she was gone on a little vacation and would be back, but as time dragged on, her absence started becoming more and more pronounced, and almost unbearable.
Please get the outside help you need - you can't do it all yourself - shouldn't have to, and it's okay if you can't. I came to this realization a few days ago. I can't deal with it all myself and I need professional guidance to do so.
I know how you feel - I lost my mom to cancer too at the age of 57. And I know I haven't grieved properly, 5 years later!
Don't hesitate to seek out whatever sources you need to to work on the grieving issues. I have started, and we'll see how it goes. But you will have a much harder time moving forward if you don't get these issues resolved.
You can make it. I know you miss your mom. There's not an hour that goes by each and every day that I don't think of mine - again 5 years later. I can start crying at any given minute if I give in to it. In fact, in the beginning, I don't think my grief was as bad as it became after more and more months of her being gone. This will sound a little crazy, but at first, it was like she was gone on a little vacation and would be back, but as time dragged on, her absence started becoming more and more pronounced, and almost unbearable.
Please get the outside help you need - you can't do it all yourself - shouldn't have to, and it's okay if you can't. I came to this realization a few days ago. I can't deal with it all myself and I need professional guidance to do so.