day 5 clean and I just got 20 vicodin...help please

[done4good]

I have been thru withdrawal hell this week and in a weak moment I called my pharm to ask for a refill yesterday. I didn't think my dr would ok it since it'd only been a week since I got 20 from him.
Well, right after an NA meeting tonight I got the msg that my prescription was ready. I am still feeling sick and wanted the relief the stupid pills would bring.
Anyway, I took 2. I want to throw the rest in the toilet but am worried I'll be going thru withdrawals all over again. Will 2 pills make me start all over again???
I'm really scared...I can't go thru another week like this.
....wanting to be DONE4good, but apparently not strong enough

[done4good]

I want to flush them but I can't seem to do it.
I know I want the empowerment of getting rid of them though.

[kimmieb]

can you taper instead?  i almost thing you have to be stronger and more disciplined to do it that way.....but if it makes you feel better....you might try it with the 20....that's a choice for you....from what i understand, you'll still feel w'd's slightly after tapering down with the 20, but perhaps not as hellish as before....hard to guarantee anything though....go with your gut feeling....does it feel right to continue taking more....or does it feel better just to get rid of them for good?

[done4good]

I don't know. I did it with ultram but the high from those wasn't as much as I get from vicodin. I've only been really using consistently for about a month and 1/2...really sporadic before that. I have been in withdrawal mode since I took my last pill Sunday am. I was almost done with the physical part right?

[cathy5841]

no you will not have w/ds again off two pills.  if you dont flush the rest you might.  you know you dont want to take them.  the guilt will eat you up.  you wont enjoy them.  NOW GO FLUSH!
cathy

i am waiting to hear the swooosshhh

[Flutterby111]

Are you strong enough to taper?