day 6

[lesah]

I am not doing well.   Nothing helps.   It's going on 60 hours of zero sleep.  I am losing grip.  I haven't taken a pill but I do feel like I'm not going to be ok

[lesah]

Thank you

[Yesidid]

Okay. You answered my question about the doctor before I posted it. I will let other people post on the NyQuil idea but that stuff makes me personally a lot more crazy!  The good news is that you have the time to get well.  Maybe you should confide in your daughter - maybe not. You need a loving, supporting, understanding person there with you. Of you don't have that, stick here tightly! And remember that you are not going crazy! A lack of sleep and chemical adjustments in your brain is the cause of this - that's all,

[lesah]

No baths.   I wish I could.  As I said I have two broken wrists that cant get wet.  I can't drive and there is no na close to walk.  Im glad you said I won't die because I feel like I am.  Like maybe I'm worse than others and taking the pills away is damaging more.  I know it's irrational but that's my thinking.  Nothing makes sense.  Nothing helps

[selfinduced]

Oh Man, I just read about the bath deal. I heated blankets in the dryer in the middle of the night so I didn't wake my family with hot baths. That helped my chills and trembling. Also advil. That so called friend is an idiot (sorry). Can you hit an NA meeting in your area? I've never been but most on here swear by them.

[selfinduced]

Lesah, You are about to turn a corner. This hopeless feeling and profound sadness will pass in a few days. As said above, make a list of all the reason's you need to be clean, all the hardship these drugs have caused you, all the symptoms your having now that you NEVER want to have again. Keep that handy to peek at when your craving. After that try not to over think this process as well as the family turmoil etc. Concentrate on that precious grand daughter and how good you'll feel as she grows and your clean and sober. I know the lack of sleep is awful, but you won't die from it and it will come I promise. Sit in a really hot tub when the anxiety and restlessness gets too much. Tell yourself you have the flu. You'd not be able to do anything but go thru that right? You can do this. I can only paint a picture of what life is like pill free…..no more chasing meds to feel normal (not even high), no more guilt over lies and disappointing loved ones, you'll hear the birds again and music will sound better, your decisions will be from you and not from a clouded mixed up brain, Your overall physical health will improve inside and out, I could go on and on. Keep close to this forum and whine your heart out. Dig deep, hold on to the rope with both hands. You will come out the other side and find joy again. Here to help.

[lesah]

Read my post right before yours.   It's no to all of your questions. No dr no money no friends.  I have me.  It's always been that way. The people who I thought were friends don't have time for my ******** is what I was told yesterday. Do you want a pill?  That was the one friend I thought I had.  Was smirking at me while I was shaking talking about it won't be long now.  You'll give.  Man!!!!!!! So is just me and me