day 7 and im ready to rip my husbands head off....need help with anxiety and stress

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Well pretty soon both my husband and I will have 7 fulls days clean. The problem is we are at each others throats...we are both struggling but I do think we are to the point that we really dont want anything. Im getting a lot of passive aggression from him..hes probably getting the same thing from me. We are in the south and stuck right in the middle of the heat wave. Im suppose to be picking my daughter up from her dads..at least a two day trip. I cant leave the house because the AC might go out and our animals will die if left alone. The house is a mess. Im restless from the boredom of SITTING ON MY BUTT! Lol I watch my husband make attempts to do the cleaning..which Im thinking is a complete waste of time. He takes a broom and sweeps the dirt into a different corner. I should be saying that hes at least attempting to do something..nah..we should be trying to find a pet/house sitter. He got hung up on by his mother when he asked her. She wanted his brother to stay and hes out there..bad. I dont want to come home to my tv pawned. Ha! One more thing..talk about a test. The dog got its leg broke a few days into detox. So doggy has a nice full bottle of tramadol to take for some real pain of a bad break. Ive never done tramadol, its crossed my mind a few time but think God for the post on the negatives about this stuff...doesnt sound too appealing to me. But back to my bro in law, he doesnt want any help right now. Leave him in charge of the doggies meds..no way. Ugghh....come on stress leave! Sorry for the rambling but at least Im not screaming at my husband.

Sonrissa · Answer

So glad you came back! This is very tough and yes emotions are all over the place! I swear it's a good thing I don't own a gun or I would have shot myself or someone else! You should be feeling better soon! As the others have said try to relax! Do anything to get you mind off of all this! Try not to get overwhelmed! I know it's so easy for me to say!! Keep posting, we are here for you! Take care!

ladybug7380 · Answer

I rather be out of town when tues arrives. Temps are going to drop by tom so Im hoping it will be safe to leave by the morning. Im trying to destroy any chance of relapse I have before its at my front door.

ladybug7380 · Answer

It was strange..i prayed that things would end. Our local "pill mill" was raided the next day. Then another the next. Most sources are cut. I have one more to call about monday. Its a family members meds but they dont take them..its their income off my husbands check. First they were free..now its "well im broke" just like any drug dealer..they get you hooked and then they got you. Ive erased contacts this time. But one of those contacts is close very close and very manipulative. Not sure what to do about that one.

Bkitty · Answer

You have already relapsed,,in your mind. Girl,,get up and get moving. Waiting till Tuesday isnt going to help you now. Now thats going to be stuck in your head. Did your husband calm down?~Bkitty

kyle505 · Answer

Now that you're back let me add one thing - and you already know this - cut off all sources, that includes "friends", dealers; inform your doc, dentist, pharmacy that you are an addict. Ask them to red flag you as such. No more opioid based meds. It is a hard and embarrassing thing to do (at least it was for me) but its the foundation on which your recovery will be built.

ladybug7380 · Answer

funny movies**

ladybug7380 · Answer

Well thank you all...this has just been the roughest day mentally. I ready to cry, im ready to scream..i have a constant headache..no patience. For the last couple yrs we have lost our friends..gained new ones but you know the type. I dont have anyone to talk to...just ran into someone who says wait until tues for your trip..just wait because they can get something. No, I dont want anything! Amazes me that they dont want you clean. They know the struggle but put it in my face.Today its like my brain is clearing..I feel like such a pos person! Where have I been? What have I been doing? Why? Why? Why? Ive been through this before but I dont think ive ever really been this determined. I guess I worry that we will both be weak at the same moment and I pray to God it wont happen. Wow..I didnt realize I was so emotional. Ive been trying to listen to good music, eat good food, watch funny moneys..ive really laughed for the first time in a long time.I WANT TO FEEL all this I just want my feeling to get under control.  Well thanks..its good to know there are others out there.

Sonrissa · Answer

Your stress, anxiety, and frustration are evident! As others have said, it is slow here on weekends, especially Sundays! It's also important to note that people here donate their time and effort! 

I'm sorry you are feeling bad! I hope you decide to come back! What you are feeling is typical for day 7. For both of you to be going through it at the same time, makes it harder! Good luck!

vicki595 · Answer

It's sad that you feel that way.  The forum can be slow on the weekends, especially with the heat and other irritants...

Good luck-

mybabies04 · Answer

Its a hard road...I am about 4 months clean and am still suffering, some days are better than others but most days I feel like giving up all together...just quitting on life in general. I hate that feeling and wish I had never started those damn pills. All I can say is even though you both are irritated, and stressed...you both know what each other are going through. My husband doesn't understand and the support isn't really there. Good luck sweetie to both of you, keep your head up :)

ImDONENoMore · Answer

Definitely - you and your husband need to get moving.  And I hope you were able to find someone to watch the pets so you could pick up your daughter.  Stay focused on the important things in your life right now - it will take you out of your own head and keep you distracted and busy.  Which will help enormously with the anxiety you're both experiencing.  And you'll see - patience will be one of the first things you develop from sobriety - just another gift that comes from getting clean.

Continued good luck to both of you.  Now get up and get moving!!

kyle505 · Answer

Bkitty is right...for some reason the forum quiets down a bit on weekends. Days 5 and 6 for me were on a weekend. I had to wait but the support came. 
Day 7 is a milestone for you, but you are still in detox. Anxiety, depression, no energy, short temper - all normal. Your current situation is just a day in your life. Not really earth shattering, but difficult when you are in withdrawal. 
You will figure it out.    And I do hope you post again.

Bkitty · Answer

Try and be a little more patient. Its Sunday and a lot of members during the weekend are busy and dont get on here as much. Im sorry that it took so long for someone to answer your question. 
I understand the fustration that you are having with your husband and with things in general. The first thing that comes to mind is that you need to get up and get moving. The longer you and your husband lay around and be fustrated,,the more time you will spend fustrated at him. Get yourself up and start doing things,,set small goals each day and increase them as the days go by. Stay away from his brother. Is their a neighbor that can help babysit the dogs?  To remain sober we have to change the environment that we live in, get rid of toxic people in our lives, Your brother in law=toxic. 
So, try and get up, get moving and maybe you two wont focus so much on the fustration that you have towards one another. Hang in there~Bkitty