doing other drug to cover my craving for coke

[lb87]

I posted this in the social community but was told it may be better to post here...

Im still clean today from cocaine but i have been doing mdma.

ive realised now i am doing it when i have urges for coke as it stops me doing the coke, i think im leading my self down a bad road i have some on me now but have decided to sell it and get rid of it i was going to do it for new years but i want to see in the new year without any drugs and then continue that way.

havnt done it loads but about 4 times in 2 weeks or so which is even more than i was doing cocaine at one point.

i know i need to stop this and i need to stop drinking as it gives me urges, but what can i do for new year when everyone is drinking/doing stuff

i really want to be drug free for the new year new years resolution and all

[lb87]

thanks man, i will write it down im begining to remember why i did it in the first place to cover up things im going to do that, i have had some great advice from so many of you thank you.

as ive said before im going to help my friends i believe i can do it i will no longer go near the stuff though my house is total drug free zone so no one can bring it round, they will be recovering to so they will no what i am going through xx

[broknbck]

yeh, the physical withdrawl can be pretty bad.  that is why i tappered down before quitting. but it will pass and then there is the mental part.
just make a list or all the reasons you reach for a pill or something and then you have to deal with each reason. that is the way to stay off for good.

it is 1 year for me now and i do not struggle at all because i have dealt with all my reasons, even the pain issue. you can do this just get it all straight in your head.

all anyone wants to do is feel better right? we just have to find other ways to do it.
and you will.

[yelsea]

It *****, but you are going to have to make new friends who are recovering addicts, and you are going to have to leave the friends you have now. That is the only way. No matter how much you want to stop, if you are constantly seeing drugs and how much fun your friends are having on them, you will want to use. If you hang out around people who don't use drugs or drink, but have had a problem with it in the past, drugs are not going to be around for you to have a pity party about not being allowed to do them, and when you get cravings, these recovering addicts can help you. It worked for me. I can't guarantee it will work for you, of course, but that was one of the biggest things I had to do. Drugs and alcohol weren't in eyesight, so I didn't use compulsively, and when I was craving I had friends who knew what I was going through and their help has been priceless.
I found my friends through NA. You don't have to find them through there, I'm not an NA advocate or anything, but that is the easiest way to find recovering addicts in my own opinion. There are definitely some assholes in the meetings I go to, and in the beginning it's hard to separate them from the good people, but just keep going and stick to finding friends in your own gender and it will eventually fall into place. There could be other places where you live, I don't know.
I'm in college now, so I've been trying to make new friends, but I know I can't go to partys where there is alcohol (because when I see alcohol I drink, and when I drink I drink A LOT and then I want to go use cocaine A LOT). I have found a group of people who don't drink at all or only sometimes, and they know about my problem, so they let me know if they are throwing a party that will have alcohol, but that I am still welcome to come. I chose not to, because I know what the outcome will be. My best friends, though, have come from NA because they are so much like me, they know how hard it is and help me. My true friends have never turned their backs on me when I was craving. I took all of my old friends out of my phone and replaced it with recovering addicts and other people who are not using and know that I am a recovering addict. It's like a safety net.
You know what I did on New Year's? I watched The Twilight Zone with my parents and then took my brother and my boyfriend over to my oldest brother's house and we did fireworks. My oldest brother had a glass of champagne, which he told me he was going to do, and went on the deck to drink it. I'm pretty sure he was ****** up on something else, but he knows my past and knows that at all costs I can't see drugs or alcohol. That was it. We watched some movies and watched the stuff on TV when the ball dropped. I tucked my niece into bed. We played poker. It wasn't like my last three New Year's. Thank God. I used to drink excessively, snort cocaine excessively, take a couple of triple stacks. An Oxy 80 to get me to sleep. Pretty much like every other weekend. I like the way I celebrate now a lot better. I'm with my family, I'm clean and sober, I know what is going on around me (i.e. I don't get taken advantage of), I have actual fun instead of chemically induced fun. I enjoy life instead of covering it up.

[lb87]

yea i here that cokes just a mental thing. hope all goes well for ya

[morganave]

I have to say that I to did not do well going to CA while I was using and getting off of coke.  Talking about getting high for 2 hrs a night only made me want to go out and get high.  It took me a little longer to get off the coke, but I did it myself one day at a time.  I am however finding it harder to get off of the meds.  Seems to be a little more physical then the coke.

[lb87]

im all of them things
really i am i know i have a problem :)

[j34]

Congrats on the clean time and also the right decision to stay away from using people!. My sponcer told me when I first came into the program to change EVERYTHING!.I needed to become Honest, Open minded and Willing. HOW is what the first letters stand for, that is how the program work, all the best!

[lb87]

thanks guys i know there is an na group near me in ware in this little church i was guna go once before and take my mate that also needs help but for some reason thought i could do it on my own since then i had many slip ups, im proud to say im nearing 60 days clean today and i do feel better for it, i find coming on here and talking to you guys helps a little like a meeting would too i guess.

seriously thank you for all your advice, i know these things already but some times need to hear them from some one else.

tjhe people places change is very hard but i have cut out the main offenders and made a point of saying to everyone if i see coke at my new years party they are out. and i mean it!!!

[DeeDeexx]

Your not doing yourself any favours at all hun.
All you are doing is using another class a instead of another.
You have to find that strength inside hun.
I've had slip ups but never let it lead to big problems (although now clean from crack and heroin for 8 mths)
You sound like your fed up and do want to change and its great you are looking for help, shows you have the want.
Now you need to look at your options, drug counsiling (sp) na groups.

You can do this hun,

All the very best  

[freebird227]

When I got clean 23 years ago all I had was meeting and the people like me who were staying away from dope a day at a time. After being there a while I got a sponsor and we began to work the twelve steps of recovery. My first year was the best and the worst in my life. But it got easier I developed some strong relationships. At first I went to meetings because I had to Then I began to go because I wanted to .. Recovery is a ...We   thing not a   ME  thing You can go on line and look up Narcotics Anonymous They have on line meetings for shut ins. No addict seeking recovery need ever die. good luck  I hope this has helped  freebird227

[jrfk]

I always see people mention meetings,,"are you going to meetings", "meetings didnt work for me",etc.Meetings are just a small part of na or aa and although they cant hurt just going to meetings is like joining a health club and just doing warm ups when you get there then leaving. A 12 step program is ALL about life changes,learning to deal with life on a daily basis using what you"ve learned in the program rather you went to a meeting that day or not. Whatever way you choose to stay clean (not just get clean) its gonna take 100% of your effort,,gl to all

[newmanagment]

lb, meetings are great, specially the first month. AA does have an answer to getn and stayn sober, but meetings dint really work for me. after a few months, they only made me want to use. that is not the case for everyone, prolly just my coke mindset that ive had for too many years.
stayn way from ya guys is tough, trust me i know. I hang out wit my kids, and that wuz bout it the first few months. but after that, i found some new clean friends, and betta yet reunited wit a bunch of olddddd friends that distanced from me cuz I wuz using!! its a blast to be the person they remember , n not the cokehead that my other friends may be missin. they prolly only missin me cuzza my hook ups and money anyway. where as my friends now missed me because of who I wuz and the laughter i brought them b4 dope took me over. wut im sayin is, its tough to do the PEOPLE PLACES THINGS change , I know that bro! but it is really important as coke users to change those three things. matter fact, if ya dont your chances of not using are gonna really suk.
ya need someone to talk to , hit me wit a message or jus post here. we all lovvvve to talk, and Ill personally help ya out all i can.

[lb87]

thanks no i havnt been to a meeting, its hard to stay away from my mates but i know it is what i need to do.

maybe i should talk to someone...

[Shayda]

I'm really glad you decided to sell the mdma... i cut from my addiction to that just a couple months ago and am so much better for it.
It's tough when everyone else is drinking and stuff... maybe you can hang out with some people who aren't partying for new years?
Hang in there.

[dominosarah]

Your playing with fire here.........Recovery is all about finding out why we used to begin with and learning some new tools in how to stay off drugs......all of them.  Are you going to NA or AA??  

[TysonRed]

I too had a big problem with cocaine for about 2yrs, got up to 2-4g per day at the end. I was also taking oxy's, methadone any other opiates I could find. My biggest mistake was when I quit cocaine was I just substituted large doses of opiates to help me get through the mental cravings that I couldnt deal with. I cant begin to tell you how stupid that was, it only brought on in my case an even worse addiction that I had previously overcome, or so I had thought anyways. Look my advice is to try and find an addiction specialist or even any doctor that is willing to help you get through the process. As far as being in those social situations the inevitably lead you to use, you have to be willing to seperate yourself from those places, atleast for the time being. Your health and livelihood is way more important than celebrating and partying for the new year. Its been one of the hardest things for me to do is get away from the people and places that I know still use or will make me want to use, its a choice you have to make. I wish you all the best, if you ever need anything let me know, take care.