I am going down a terrible path

[orangezigzag]

This is my first post. I have read a lot of valuable information here and have been "lurking" for quite a while. I seem to have an egregious habit. I take between 6 and 8 oxynorms a day. They come in a very small gel capsule and are IR but I snort them nonetheless because I like the feeling of it going up my nose...how sad is that?!?! I also take Lortabs and Percocets throughout the day but not very many because I would much rather take the oxynorms. This addiction has affected every single aspect of my life from work, to family, to relationships, and not to mention financially. I hear and read success stories of people who have the strength to stay clean...but unfortunately...I dont think I have that in me. I am too weak!! This is the very first time I have admitted to having an addiction...so maybe this first step will lead to something positive. No one in my family knows about this...not even my girlfriend. I want to come clean...but I cant bear what they will think of me.

[jim811]

Hi Orange....

Yes, it's rough and scary to think about giving up the pills....everyone ere has been there, done that...some even a few times.  I think you already stated the reasons you think you'll quit but until you decide for yourself, you'll be on a roller coaster.

If you really want to quit, everyone can help you...well...do you really want too?

29 days clean today....

Peace,

Nick

[newhope907]

let me tell you what worked for me...Go to a detox center...they will taper you down so the withdrawls aren,t so bad...they giveyou meds to help get the pills out of you system. In 2-3 weeks time the real you will be back...I was on them for 2 years..I went through the city I live in....they have programs...you only stay for 4 to 6 days and you are on you way...no cold turkey....check the bluepages in your phonebook....you'll b surprised what they have to offer....don't be proud....just do it for you...and trust me, I work in the medical field and I chose that over CT....its sooooo worth it....Good luck to you!

[newhope907]

you can do it

[rosebud66]

keep reading and learning.  it will help you do what is right for you.  it can be done.  everyone here has felt and feels the way you do.  good luck and keep reading and posting.  if you were as weak as you think you wouldn't have found this place. been lurking or posted.  baby steps or OK!!!!!

[TooManyOxyz01]

WELCOME TO THE FORUM, AS PREVIOUS POSTS STATED, WE ARE AS SICK AS THE SECRETS WE KEEP. I STARTED USING OXYS AFTER A LEFT TOTALSOULDER REPLACEMENT, ACTUALLY BEFORE. IT TOOK OVER MY LIFE, ALL I WANTED WAS THE MEDS, IT COST ME A RELATIONSHIP THAT I HAD WAITED APPROX. 20 YRS. FOR, THIS PERSO I KNEW IN HIGH SCHOOL AND ALWAYS WANTED IN MY LIFE. THEN WHEN THE OPPORTUNITY CAME ALONG I WAS MESSED UP ON OXYS AND MESSED UP ON LIFE. AS SOON AS I GOT CLEAN MY LIFE STARTED COMING TOGETHER, IT CAN HAPPEN FOR YOU TOO, YOU JUST HAVE TO GET HONEST AND CORRECT ANY MISTAKES YOU HAVE MADE.
PLEASE USE AND TRUST THE PEOPLE ON THIS FORUM THEY SAVED MY LIFE AND I AM SURE YOU CAN BENEFIT FROM THIS FORUM TOO!!!!

PLEASE GIVE IT A TRY AND LET ME KNOW IF I CAN HELP YOU.....DON

P.S. I HAVE BEEN CLEAN 1 MONTH AND 5 DAYS AND LOOKING FORWARD NOT BACKWARD!!!!

[addictedme]

Secrets can drive you to use or keep you useing. Its better to save your *** then save face.gl to ya

[worried878]

You just made a huge step....admitting it!  many never do....I am clean for 13 days....lots of help here    keep posting

[GoingToMakeIt]

Admitting a problem is a very big step. You probably know that these drugs are slowly sucking your life out of you. The decision to quit will have to come from you. The desire to not be like you are has to be stronger than the desire to use. Stay around this forum. Ask questions and learn. When you are ready, we will be here to help you.

[jrizz]

Listen man...i was taking oxys for two years and have finally gotten clean and have been for seven months....you have to get out and stop while you can because the deeper you get in the more it affects your mentality, body chemistry and your withdrawal will be worse. it has been along time since i was using and i still have wd symptoms and effects emerge from time to time. dont let yourself go man...protecting your image is no where worth the damage you will suffer man...let me know if  you need suggestions...