dr. appt tomorrow for suboxone

[Eliseisdreaming]

hello everyone this is my first time posting something on this site so please bare with me ok I was addicted to prescription painkillers for 5 years I went to a rehab facility and when I came out I started suboxone my doctor weaned me off when I was pregnant and when I had my son I was given percocet for the pain of the c-section which afterwards I decided I needed to get back on suboxone some time went by and I lost my job therefore I lost my insurance while I was still taking 8 milligrams of Suboxone but my doctor would not see me unless I had the money which I did not have so I was able to get medicaid and I searched and searched and finally found a doctor that will take my insurance that prescribe suboxone but its been about 7 or 8 months that I haven't had a prescription for suboxone and I have been taking it illegally from a friend my question is what do I tell my doctor tomorrow I am so scared that he will not prescribe it to me if I tell him that I've been taking suboxin from a friend because he might think I'm abusing it which I am NOT I am just trying to avoid the withdrawal so I can take care of my son

[Eliseisdreaming]

Thank you all so much for the support. I did tell him the truth, and he started me on 4mg with the intention of getting off eventually. I cannt express the relief i feel right now. Tbh i never even thought this day would come, i spent the last half a year feeling hopeless and depressed i finally feel some hope. Thank you again i know i still have a ways to go but at least im on the right path.

[weaver71]

A doctor who accepts public health insurance is often more empathetic, in my experience. Public assistance means the doctor gets less money, half as much as private insurance in many cases. You don't want this doctor anyway, if to can't be honest with them. I say roll the dice with honesty. Keep us posted on how things go.

[Daniellebar01]

Good luck today!!!  Keep us posted!  And remember straight from the heart and I think u will be fine!  I am here for you so don't feel like you are
Going this alone!  :)

[loveandlight05]

I think that you can tell him the truth, and it will be OK. You are just trying to do what is right for your family and your sobriety. You are not using sub to get high. You had an issue with your insurance, and you had to be able to continue to lead a normal life to take care of your child. I understand that there is a possibility that a doctor might still be angry at you for taking the medicine when not prescribed, but I have found that most doctors who work with addicts are pretty understanding. I believe that if you tell him the same things you have written here, he will help you. You did what was right for your baby with going off of the subs, but you need them to keep your sobriety. That is understandable, in my opinion. But I do think you should tell the truth. The truth sets us free, but lies make it worse. Be honest and sincere.

[Eliseisdreaming]

Thanks for responding! Tbh idk what kind of response i was hoping for. I just wish i knew the right/perfect thing to say to the dr. In the past i wouldn't have cared as much since my insurance was great but now things are different and when I'm sick from wd i feel like a horrible mom and that's the absolute worst feeling in the world, i jus want to stop this vicious cycle of feeling ok then feeling sick and not knowing if ill ever get better. Thanks your support means a lot.

[Daniellebar01]

Hello!  Glad u posted, I just started on here also.  Just tell him what u just posted.  It sounds straight from ur heart!  He will understand I hope.  Good luck and let us know.  I will be thinking of u.  Remember u are doing what is best for u and your son!!!  Good luck!!!