feelin pretty sad

[cubfan70]

I'm sitting here drinking and feeling HORRIBLE for doing it!  I was sober for 3 years and could TRULY say sobriety DOES bring positive things. I hurt myself and have been on pain meds and fell into to same bad habits, and have ALREADY found myself in trouble in all sorts of ways. I took so much of my pain meds that I ran out and told myself NO MORE! Yet, having NOTHING today, and just sitting here alone (until the cubs game starts!) made me so depressed that I went and got a bottle of captain's and started drinking. I'm not happy, I'm very alone cuz I don't want anybody to know I'm using. Any kind words?

[cubfan70]

I really appreciate your thoughts. I need friends now more than ever. I have no more support system, and I NEED it more than ever!!!
Cubs are up 2-0 Thank GOD!

[malenurse57]

Thoughts and prayers are with you. Start fresh tomorrow. Hope the Cubs win.
God bless

[cubfan70]

Boy you're right!!!!!!!

[enemy48]

If you've just recently run out of medication, you won't have as much tolerance for the alcohol.  You'll be in bed soon.  Hope there's a TV in your bedroom.