3rd times a charm

[mommyto3guys]

I have been "stalking" this site for months! I am almost at the 72 hour mark of my third and final attempt to get my life back! First time around I went the suboxone route-worked for a few months, then back to my little blue friend! In october I "quit" again only to start back up a month ago. This forum is a God send-i have cried, laughed and prayed when reading posts on here. Laughed in a good way, when I can relate! I know everyone is different, but my main struggle right now is energy level-advice please :)

[mommyto3guys]

Ok, so I consider this a huge step for me-i looked up meetings near me. My husband is out of town and I could easily attend one without the "where are you going" curiosity. Also, swflafun, I live in swfl also:) and I laughed about the hydroxycut as I packed my bottle of xantrex for work today! My sleep was horrible last night-absolutely horrible. I know that is common, but wow! I am so sorry my thoughts are all over the place, trying to do this fast before next group of students expect me to be their happy teacher!

[udoschoices]

AA/NA - the last thing i tried after 5 years and first thing that worked....  

[swflafun]

Hey there stalker! Lol. I did the same. Also was a huge roxy fan. Sounds like your serious this time, that's good. As you know, all of us go through this slightly different. Energy and sleep was last to come for me. The standard line: a broad spectrum multi vitamin, vitamin C, vitamin B (I use a super complex), L-tryosine (500mg x2 in the AM). For the first 3 weeks I used a diet supplement called Hydroxycut which is available at Walgreens.Days 1-9 were still tough, but that stuff does help. I managed to work everyday, somewhat..
Exercise, even if you don't want to. I made nice with my bike and pedaled everyday. Even though that sneeky bast#$d betrayed me and I could barely do a mile. :) Day 10 I was well on my way. Time is what you need, no more affairs with your "blueberries" and a good attitude, which you seem to have, it does help to have the right outlook.
Aftercare is certainly an option, but I see you are hesitant about that. Just remember that NA is there and its free.
That's about all the advice I can give. Congratulations on day 3, you seem to be doing as well as one can hope for. Keep it up and stay tough. :)
Gary

[mommyto3guys]

Gnarly, like I said, I have been stalking for a while :) and was hoping to have you comment. I know where my issues come from-stress, my father died 6 years ago, my youngest was diagnosed with cystic fibrosis, and I was separated from my husband. I am smart enough to know what I should do...I just don't do it. The group meetings-although I would like to consider, seem unrealistic due to my profession. I think I am fearing the one on one thing more than I would the NA meetings-is this normal? I am living in the mindset of if I don't think about it...it's not real

[gnarly_1]

HI....the energy thing can be a real grind exercise helps even though you dont think you can do any even a walk around the block helps you can build up from there .....im more consired about the relapses then anything else you know we beet this drum a lot but aftercare is critical to staying clean  both N/A and A/A are free and the progams have worked for many of our members including myself if you have major medical ins it will cover out pacent drug consoling one on one but I realy fell the meeting you get more out of + you have others there then been threw it nothing replace human interaction sometimes we just need a hug when where down and out you will find that at the meetings....you need to plug in some where and break this cycle less the 10% of the people that try will make it a yr clean without aftercare we already know your not in that 10% so it is up to you to make some changes it could very well save your life this isent a game where playing here people O/D everyday...I wish you all the best with your recovery become pro/active in it good luck and God bless.....Gnarly    

[mommyto3guys]

Ha! Vicki-just read back thru your post...2 days if you are 12! Cute! I am 35, so if its anything like the trying to lose weight after 30, I am in real trouble! Oh and other info-i came "clean" to my husband when getting suboxone treatment...now he has no knowledge of relapse one and relapse two.

[mommyto3guys]

I am sure that like most, I could basically write a book about my trials and tribulations.  My 1st time off, I had been taking about 60mg roxicet a day, started smaller but that was the highest I went-this was for about 3 or so years. Then I started the suboxone for 3 months and thought I was "okay", whatever that means:) started right back into my old relationship with little blue about 3 months later-then spent another foggy year before I decided enough is enough. That brings us to October when I spent 3 days of HELL breaking up with little blue. About a month ago, I started again for a few days/week then a few days/week without. This brings me to a little over a week ago-i went through 15 30 mg pills in 7 days. My last one was Sunday and I have not been too bad-i worked yesterday and today with my friend immodium. I bought some really great vitamins and I really think that is helping this time. The energy thing is horrible-i have three active boys and I am dare I admit-a teacher...my suboxone dr told me the majority of his patients were teachers-scary, huh?

[vicki595]

Hi!  So, it's YOU who's been stalking!!   It's about time!

72 hours?  How do you feel really?

Are you sure you want to talk about energy right now? Okay. You don't have any.

It's so different with everyone. It takes months for some 2 days if you're 12. You know,it depends on so many things: Med history,age,length of use,amt of use,color of eyes...

Are you taking vitamins and minerals? Exercising is huge here and it's hard but you've just got to do it!   I'm sure you've read all about the usual advice...Are you eating okay? The thing is there's really a whole process that you need to go through and your body is going to make deccisions FOR you. Your brain needs to heal and start acting properly and sending the correct messages and on and on...Time is your friend and your enemy...

What were you taking?