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Hi this is very hard to do. I am sick as a dog and can't stand it anymore. I have been taking lortab for a year. I am day 3 of this torment.  Been trying the home remedies but nothing makes me feel ok. Was so dehydrated I went to the ER last night and got some fluids put in me. Oh yeah and some demerol and toradol for the migraine I had developed. I felt good for about 2 hours then the drugs wore off. I tried to eat but it just stuck in my mouth very hard to swallow food. Gator aid goes down better.
I have scripts but too soon to fill them. Guess whos fault that is. Mine of course. I have fibromyalgia. it hurts so bad but honestly not as much as this withdrawal does. this is so sick . I take lortab 10 twice a day except when I am really bad then I take 3 in 24 hour period. I thought I was safe because  I dont take handfulls of pills.
My question is when does it stop.

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Omg this mental thing is tough. Up and down. I am shaking like a leaf
I wish this stuff would stop.

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Pat how are you doing?

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I am still feeling rough.  It is really hard.  I am just hoping to get the withdrawals over with and then I know I will have to deal with the mental stuff.  I have to stay clean this time or I will lose everything.  I need to get back to feeling good and dealing with everything that I have neglected for so long.  That is why I don't want to see you start again.  I just don't want to see you having to go thru this again and maybe ruin your life.  It's a horrible disease and we do so many things for pills that we would never do in our right minds.  I wish I had stayed clean the first time I tried 6 months ago.  I would be in a lot better position right now. The hole just gets deeper and deeper.  Sorry for rambling.  Please keep posting.  I know how hard it is.

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This thing is bigger than me. I got the scripts. I am determined to continue on my journey to reduce the need for this med. I bought a pill cutter and halved all my pills. I have taken only 1 pill today 1/2 this morning and 1/2 tonight. and my body is screaming for more. However I realize that I have to remain strong. My husband has promised to help me and monitor my med intake. I am sorry to dissapoint all of you who were pulling for me. I am committed to reduce my meds, If I can I will continue to come here and get strength and support from all of you fine folks.

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Nobody here will judge.  I am just grateful that I don't have a script sitting waiting for me because I don't know what I would do.  
Let us know how you are doing.  We will be here for you no matter what.
You are lucky to have a supportive husband and that he is aware of your problem.
Hugs
Pat

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KEEP COMING BACK!


go ahead and do what ya gotta do for now, i think you are trying.
I'm really struggling with the "mental stuff", so don't feel like saying much right now, just keep coming back.