hey all

[bb454]

I haven't been posting but I have been reading.I haven't taken any vicodin for a couple of months now. I had a 3 year habit of taking 4 to 6 Vicodin a day..my question is this. I have back problems and always had a legit script . Its really hard for me to be around people who take them including my mother. I don't like feeling that way toward people and I hope it goes away with time. I did this on my own and didn't tell anyone except my husband being too ashamed. I know I have a long way to go.

[bb454]

Also I'm wondering why so many people comment on old posts from years ago..is that new?

[bb454]

It is a bear..f that its a tyrannosaurus rex! To all of you out there struggling out there..I know how you feel..you aren't alone. Xo

[bama88]

It will take time. the first 90 days are a bear.....grrr.

[bb454]

I hope so Bama. I have been clean a couple. Of months now. Can't say the obsession has gone away...fight it everyday.

[bama88]

Hi....its hard because we make it hard. our sick brains are programmed to concentrate on pills. there will come a day when you wont concentrate so much on the pills. as you learn to live pill free it will be easier.

[bb454]

Its ok:) I like it bumped up.that way more people see it.

[weaver71]

Good, I'm glad your mom knows and you posted about it, so I know you have given it a lot of thought. It took courage to make this post, so you are taking steps to solve this issue. I know exactly how hard it is. Sorry, I bumped your post back up.

[bb454]

Yes I did read it. Its a great post and I do agree..but I'm just not ready to tell people yet.I know eventually I will have to. My Mom knows I struggled with it as well..she doesn't take the pills iin front of me. Just knowing she takes them bothers me. I really don't think she needs them. This sounds crazy I know. I'm hoping this stage goes away quickly. Thanks for your response. :)

[weaver71]

If you have been reading you have probably read, "tell your secret." I can tell you, when I started out years ago, I never said anything. Over the years it just progressed. I understand not saying anything for legitimate reasons, but shame is not one of them. I bet your family would gladly not pop open a bottle in front of you if they knew it bothered you. It seems like a small secret, you don't use anmore after all. But your mind is patient and tricky. A bad week, your feet hurt, someone was rude, all at them same time your mom is rattling that little bottle in reaching distance. I'm no saying you will take one, but being honest will definitely make it easy. You have nothing to be ashamed of, and when I told, I finally knew that. Good Luck.