i am 26 yrs old and i started on pills about 4 yrs ago. i started out with oxycotins, whatever milligram i could get. first it started out as a recreational thing then soon turned into a daily routine. before i knew it, it became over a yr sniffing oxy's.if i didnt have one i was having terrible withdrawals, not being able to go to work, not sleeping,not eating, diarrhea, watery eyes, tired, weak, cold sweats, goosebumps all over my body.. i finally got into seeing a suboxones dr and he put me on two 8 mg suboxones a day. as the year went by, i was down to 2 mg of suboxones a day. i was gettin alot better but sometimes, i still did oxy's in between, but i always had subs for the withdrawals. i ended up moving to another state so i lost my dr and my script and insurance. when i moved , and ran out of subs, i thought i was able to stop everything, but i was wrong, after two days of not having subs, withdrawals started coming back, not as bad as it use to, but i was still gettin the cold sweats, weak. not being able to sleep. not to mention, i had a minor surgery and the dr gave me 5 mg percs . after that, i was back doing pills . whatever i could get, perc 5's, 30's . recently i started doing oxys again, and some perc 10's and zanax. the opiates help with the withdrawals and since ive been on pills i get anxiety at night so i also take zanax. i also use to be on prozac while i was on subs because i told my old dr that since doing oxy's i started to become very depressed. i recently started doing oxys again not only for the withdrawals but some things are going wrong in my life and doing oxy's help me forget about my problems for the moment being high. before gettin into pills, i was so responsible, good with managing my money, i use to work out three times a week, took care of things. now im always procracinating, lazy, dont work out, blow my money on pills and i sometimes hate the person ive become and want to go back to the old me who was always so responsible and healthy and have my priorities straight. i dont have insurance or a dr, not to mention, goin to see a dr and paying for a sript for subs are too expensive. i just cannot afford it all at once. i have recently finally got a hold of subs again. but how do i come off on subs? i tried to wean my self off but when i dont take subs, i feel still feel the drawls and have bad anxiety and freak out. my ex boyfriend use to also do oxys then started on heroin. he had to move to get away from everything, and he said he took subs for three days and just stopped everything and withing two weeks he finally felt better and now is 100 % better and doesnt need subs or any pills and has been clean since. i dont understand how he was able to just take subs for three days and got off just like that. how do i come off on everything. i feel like i still need to take subs, and sometimes i still get cravings to do oxy's and i still need zanax to calm my anxiety to help me sleep... if you have any advice for me, please let me know. i dont know what to do, i just want to be off everything completely and not do anything anymore. but i still feel like im not mentally or physically strong enough to get off on everything. i feel terrible every morning waking up with goosebumps and cold sweats.. plz help!!!