i cant stop using/crravings and i love being high

[pinky510]

hi,I'm new to this site,I use norco and soma,and I love how I feel on them,I mean LOVE!! I know its a proble,,I know I am a addict.I have been to rehab 2x,but when I go to rehab,I just seem to come out with more info on how to get high more effectivly and intensly and learn new ways to scam.I don't know how I will ever get clean because the intense cravings.they told us in rehab crtavings only last 15 minutes,but that's not what I experience.plusi love how it makes me feel.I love it.I am so much happier,and in a better mood and have more energy when I'm on norco and soma,and my stress goes away and my emotional pain and lonliness goes away.I guess the only reason I have that makes me want to get clean is that I am a slave to a pill.I "can't" run out.I don't have any other personal consequencves in life.if I could get my hands on a million pills honestly I wouldn't care about getting clean.there is a part of me that feels like we have anti depressants to improve mood and why is it so bad that I take a pill that makes me feel better?why is that so bad?please,I'm interested in peoples thoughs.thanks

[mom_of_two136]

The problem with it can be summed up in one word, tolerance. You will build up a tolerance for it. You will keep needing more and more to get the same effect. I was up to over 50 norco a day. It will eventualy destroy your life. That is why it is not used for depression. Please think about what you are doing before it is too late.

[NoMoreFog]

We all felt the same way at one point during the addiction -- what's so wrong with being dependent on pills? I had even calculated what my yearly budget would be on pills and planned out the schedule in picking them up and everything, as if it were OK. It's not OK.

These pills are meant for pain relief, not for anti-depressing or mood elevation. If they were, they would be prescribed for depression.

Did you ever think that the loneliness and depression was CAUSED by your opiate dependence? Personally, I started taking Oxycontin when I was in a good place -- I wasn't lonely or depressed, felt very social and stable, very happy with my life. Within just a couple of weeks, I regressed into an antisocial, sad person when I wasn't high. The only way to boot me out of the depression was by taking Oxycontin, but the more Oxycontin I took, the more depressed I got when the effects went away.

The more you take, the longer you're on these drugs, the shorter your "high" period will be and the more you'll need to just feel "normal." I realized this. This is not the way to live.

If you had a million pills, it would eventually get to the point where you would need to take a pill every 10 minutes just to keep your high. Not only that, but everyday life will become so distorted in your mind that you'll forget what the real world is supposed to look like.

[bjmbb]

Hi, I too took Soma and Norco. Started with vicodin but went to Norco because it has less tylenol. Don't you find that the combo counteracts eachother? I did. I still need the soma and don't have a problem with that. That will probably be a lifer. I also take neurontin for nerve pain. When the norco stopped working I was more mentally dependant than anything else. Then I started  taking more and getting loopy and my kids started noticing. So I felt it was time to just go cold turkey. Maybe you can switch from the vicodin to an AD. and see how you feel.

[JLB78]

how long have you been taking them? and how much? I was taking them for almost 3 years and i felt the exact way you did until i started spending money on them that i didnt have. And then I started getting sick from taking them. I think my body was shutting down and couldnt handle the amount i was taking. I am now on soboxon and am doing everything in my power to not go back again. I've been clean a few times and everytime I get the urge to take them I do because I  also love the way they make me feel (when they dont make me sick). But since I have 2 little girls that need me to be healthy to be able to take of them I'm done for good now.  You said why is it so bad that you take a pill that makes you feel better? I still feel that way about them but like I said they werent making me feel that way anymore so I dont know. Mentally they are still good just not physically. This probably didnt help much but good luck with what your looking for.