i dont know what to do?

[shouldIgo]

Hello, I really don't know what to do. I'm 33 and I have been on a pain med for about 5 years now. It started to health reason but then turned into not able to stop cause of I know  will happen if I just stop them cold turkey! I am due  to go into rehab any day as soon as I call them but I am scared. I have a 2 year old little girl andi have never be away from her and I can't get it out of my head I may die while I'm detoxing! My heath is very poor I am only about 100 pounds and I have very bad surger. I just can't pick up the phone to call to tell them I'm coming! I want to get clean for my little girl and me but I'm scared what should I do?

[jaybird7702]

I am currently an addict for over a year now and have decided to get clean and my main motivation was the thought i had one day when i realized i had been doing things for so long for just one reason and i didnt have a clear sight of what that reason was anymore and i realized my entire mentality was revolving around fear and pills and i just didnt want to live like that anymore.  You will feel better and you will be the same again it just dosent seem like that now.  Wake up set a goal and get clean.    ...........Change your Life.........

[sway1]

congrats on getting into rehab. try not to worry over things you can't control like what if i die. chances are good that you would die sooner if you keep using. your duaghter is at a good age for this and may not remember afterwards. i got down to about 92 pounds in the heigth of my using. am up to about 110 now but still skinny. our bodies have to work so hard processing all the junk we put in them that it takes away from our immune system. you are doing the right thing. let us know how it all goes. this is a wonderful website full of caring people from all over the world. peace, sway

[cathy5841]

Hi and welcome to the forum.  If you have the opportunity to go to rehab I would definately go.  Many here wish they could afford to go.  Your little girl will be okay and think...when you get out she will have a new mom...it will be well worth it...you will learn so much about your addiction and the steps it takes to quit and stay quit...let us know what you decide...good luck