well im doing better today went to docotor

[flamingogirl1]

so i wanted to tahnk everyone that responded to my post last night i was feeling very low last nite. well i woke up this morning and decided I needed to do something about this once and for all. I went to my docotr and asked him to please help me. he suggested that I go on suboxene. he referred me to a docootr here that prescribes it but i have to get in right away before my health insurance is gone. another good thing happened i got a interview tommorow at a insurance agency im so happy things are starting to look up a little. now at least maybe i can get a job and not have to worry about money and health insurance. well wish me luck this is the hardest thing i have ever gone through and its hard when you dont have a lot of people in your life who care about you. but you guys on here have acted more opening and supportive than my family or the few people in this world that i do have. oh one more thing my husband called me today and asked if i would like to come over for dinner tonight and discuss us working things out. im so happy these pills have totally changed my personality and i have done a lot of lying to him and cheated on him i know i dont deserve him but he said he loves me and doesnt believe in divorce and he will try everything he can with me until it comes to a point where he cant. i feel so horrible about how much i hurt him does anyne have any suggestions on how i can make this up to him and make him belive i want to change and i can make him happy again i feel like such a horrible person.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

Congratulations on everything......just be honest with your hubby - he does love you, ya know?

[ladyboop]

I think with your husband, The best thing you can do is be honest and speak from the heart. You do not need anyone telling you what to say or do, It has to come from the heart.. That he will believe...

  Count your blessing,

       Lady

[cathy5841]

you are so right.  actions speak louder than words.  i am so happy for you.  this is like getting a second chance at life, after we have screwed up the first one.  i know you can do this, it is hard but doable.  please be sure and ask him to keep the pills away from you...thats a tough one.  we are here when ya need us.

[flamingogirl1]

haha yes i will get my little guy back i know my husband loves me a lot and i put him through a lot but i also have been there for him and was a perfect gf to him for 4 years. we strated getting heavy in the pills after we got married and thast when i started all the lying and decieving. but i want to change i want to be a good wife to him , he doesnt believe in divore unless he has tried eveyrthing so he is willing to take me back. i just wish there was something i could do to really show him i want to be better i guess the only way is to really do it and show him.

[flamingogirl1]

thank u so much that means so much to have someone who cares about how i am doing. i really dont have much in this world my husband and my cat r my life. i know that is lame im only 26 but i dont go out and drink or party i just love being with those two without them i have nothing so im hoping that now i can work things out wiht him that i will have a better chance at recovery. only thing is he has to take these pills for a hwile longer so it might be hard being around them but i know if i ask him not to have them around me he wont. thanks again!

[cathy5841]

wow, thats quite a turn around.  and really great.  be very honest with your husband about your plans and keep him in the loop.  our sposes play a very important role in our recovery.  you can do this.  you hve great motivation now.  good luck to you.  p.s. does that mean you will get your kitty back too?  lol

[road2recovery]

Girl i am so happy for you, that i have the tears in my eyes....So glad about the doctor, job, and husband wanting to try again..I know how devastated you were....Things are just looking up for you in every way....
I know you can do this, you don't want to lose the man you love...But you have to also do this for you, and i know you want it!!!
I could not be more proud or happy for you right now...
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