Kay,
You obviously are in a very bad situation, but not uncommon at all. The way you have been managing your life has not been working. It has not been working. Perhaps LISTENING to someone else who IS clean may be the way to go.
Good luck.
P,s, Just because everyone else worships you on the webpage does not mean i will!!!! I am not a fake as person and keep it 100 take it as it all is!! your being honest so i am as well!! lets see if you can handle it like "everyone" else is FORCED TO!
i have not nor am i justifying my drug use!!!!!!!!!!!! theres no damn excuse for it...seems as if you are just taking what you want from my responses and then replying to what you feel at that time is worthy of ur judgement!! I am by no means saying i have all the answers nor am i denying my ****** addiction...but because i dont believei n your n/a classes and 12 step program there's no hope ayy...well ********...every addict is different and different things work for different people!! i really dont need a 12 step or n/a book thumper!! been there done that it worked for you great wonderful!! But you are not me!! Nor have you gone through my exact situation!! these are my thoughts that i have a right to express on here and rant about!! of course your going to hear justification in the midst of my thoughts that are typed out.............HELLO its human nature to justify any and everything we feel or know is wrong that we are doing...!! But not once have i denied a damn thing and have been NOTHING but straight up and honest!! I don't need to hear how this saddens you if i am continue to do something i know disappointing my god but yet still do it...why would you thing i would give a **** about disappointing a complete stranger??????? that just continues preaching hardcore and is so much better because u "supposedly" beat addiction!!!! Your words are NOTHING but Judgemental...i didnt ask for advice on what to ******* do...i know what needs to be done i dont need advice...you tell me nothing i dont already know!! I hear nothing you type because you have a whack *** way of communicating if u think your tactics are going to help more then not you are wrong....your whole entire demeanor is offensive and wreaks of nothing BUT JUDGEMENT AND opinion pushing!! so with that said...maybe you should reevaluate your "oh so perfectness" because hunny your **** stinks just as bad as mines!! if not worse!!
Also...my children are not in the same home as me at this time...i have taken care of this as i try to get clean!!
I TAKE THAT END BACK...9 times out of 10 most people dont have any new information that i havent already heard or experinced or know!!! but that 1 percent is what keeps me listening!
FIRST LET ME SAY THIS.....i am one of thee most upfront peole you will ever meet in ur life as if ur cant tell from my last 2 responses...i expect nothing less not more but truth!! being told what i wanna hear is something i do not enjoy and dipise pity being given to me or sugar coating of the truth just tell it to me straight up!!ill agree or i wont..if i dont dont force ur opinon on me!! this is how i am its all or nothing cut dry or nothing at all!! So just know that!! you wont offend nor tell me anything i dont already know!!