looking for help

[bigdog649]

i am 50 i am addicted to multiple painkillers my doctor keeps giving me i am depressed because i hurt all the time and depressed that i take painkillers all the time i am worried about loosing my job i recently (july) had the 3rd heart surgery, i dont make enough money to support my family at my job but i cannot work a second job i can bearly do my primary job, my wife cant work my daughter works and we take care of her 6 month old daughter whom i love with all my heart and soul pretty screwed up huh

[Charetti]

I dont have an answer for you but just wanted to let you know that many people here understand the corner you are in and will offer support.  I hope you will find what you need to get through this.

[bigdog649]

it is one dr xing all the pain meds he knows i am addicted he has treated me when i ran out and went into withdrawl he just got me more meds wife cannot work is disabled tried disability for her but since she has never worked for long she cannot get anything i am the only income if i fail we are homeless and worse now i recently hurt myself at my job and they are circleing the wagons trying to get rid of me it just keeps piling up lmao otherwise cry but i dont see anyway out here at my witts end

[worried878]

R u sure u should be working?  u have alot on ur plate..3 heart surgeries is alot..disability would be an almost sure thing..but then again if u r the breadwinner/disability isnt a whole lot

Addiction doesnt help matters tho..it seems as if u realize this..why cant ur wife work?  if she is physically incapable of working, perhaps she could look at disability...just thinkin this is alot for someone with a bad heart..nrg is low after heart surgery/specially 3...u need to ponder the fact that if u reach the point where u can not work..what will happen to everyone in this picture?

Talking with ur dr is sumpin u need to do as stated above...is one dr rx-ing u all of these pain meds?..if not then u may need to evaluate this as 2 different drs rx-ing narcotics is often a reason for investigation these days..if u have only one dr//or more//u need to share these concerns..perhaps not so intense//only express the fact that u no longer want narcotics in ur life

Addiction increases stress levels//stress aggravates pain..specially heart problems...it mqay well be that ur efforts to relieve pain are only making ur pain worse...i finally figured this out///but we r all different..if the pain pills are becoming just another stressor vs pain relief..then it may be time to let go

keep posting..there is so much support here..pm me if u need any hekp..read the health pages and learn..often understanding is the key to freedom

[avisg]

Let your doctor know you are now addicted to the meds. I know its scary and at first its going to seem make the depression and pain worse but trust me with clean time you will feel so much better.  This can be the first step in recovery ....

[dominosarah]

Have you told your doctor you are addicted to these pills?