pain is better than addiction

[bama88]

for all of you wondering. im doing good. day three is a big turn around for me. i underestimated my pain levels going into this scope. maybe because i was clean or the fear of the pills something made this scope hurt more than any other I've went thru. and I've been thru alot. another thing is my pain pills really don't work. or for that long. so i gave up on those things. at first i thought i had bad ones. so i had some left over from the emergency appoinement and switched the makers around. and still no good coverage. so after my noon meds i haven't took anymore percs. i figure why bother if they aren't working. and my mom is arguing with me because i won't dose up every 6 hours im letting my pain get away from me. well as im typing on keyboard im at a level 9. if i was at hospital the nurse would give me from my face...tears running down. eyes close and deep deep breathes.

[ricart70]

hope you heal quickly.Hang in there

[NeverDreamed]

Hey there Bama.  Hope you feel better soon.  I know you are scared to take the pain meds, but you do need to take them before the pain gets too bad, or they won't work.  My husband had ankle surgery and originally they gave him dilaudid, which did not curb his pain at all.  He said he didn't even feel it.   The next day they switched him to percocet, these helped him immensley.  So I think eveyone's body processes differently.  Take what you need to relax, if your body is stressed from pain, the healing won't be as effective.  If your mom is stressing you out, bless her, but send her home.  You need some peace, and relaxation to begin that healing.  Do what you need to do to take care of yourself.  I'm sending my healing prayer and thoughts your way.  
xoxo

[Free_ovitall]

Personally, I'd rather take the pain meds than suffer  with that kind of pain. If you are at level 9 then you can bet it's not withdrawal pain from percocets, which are a weak pain killer to begin with.
Perhaps you should ask the Doc for a fentynol-pop while you recover and your pain subsides?  Fentynol  isn't hard to stop especialy if you aren't on it very long. This is probably because it has a very long half life, unlike fast acting drugs, which exit your body almost as fast as they go in. Thats why you get bad withdrawl symtoms from them as well. Fentynol leaves slowly, up to 120 hours after a dose. this gradual withdrawal is almost like it has a built in tapering program. Fentynol pops are  becoming a very popular post surgury medication, replacing the morphine machines.

[minn66]

Hey bama, just letting you know I'm thinking of you. I am awake because I am having a flare-up and got trigger point injections yesterday. Most of the time I don't think about meds but once in a while, like tonight (or early this morning ;)) I wish I could take some. I don't have any and I really don't want them so I won't, but I think about it so I am installing a new ROM on my other phone and visiting some forums I belong to. I hope you feel better soon. Like some have suggested, maybe talk to your doctor?

I so admire your sense of humor through all of this and even when you're in pain you encourage others. I hope if he hasn't already, that the Sandman will visit you soon.

[lulu747]

(((BAMMA)))
Hey girl, you made it!  My heart goes out to you, darlin'.  You are certainly going through the ringer hey?  I know the suffering must seem endless right now..Hang on to your hope and your sense of humour!  And I know you have a heck of a time with this-but please let people take care of you.  You don't have to be super woman...(:
I don't have any more medical advice than the wise people above already imparted, but I wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you...I'm praying for some peace and relief for you...Mind, body, and soul....And, of course, sending much love....
Lu

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[snakejones]

Hi, sweetie---So glad that's over with! Why couldn't your doctor have given you Demerol/Phenergan (Mepergan Fortis)? Isn't that what you took in December? Percs are bad news for you; I know you don't want to take anything opiate, but if things are really bad (and I consider a pain level 9/10 pretty catastrophic!), it might be best to take an opiate not in related to your DOC. Remember too about letting your pain get ahead of you? You'll pump out a lot of cortisol (hormone like cortisone) and your body will be stressed and not heal as readily. Studies show that patients that take small doses of pain medicine BEFORE the pain gets bad actually take less medicine over the course of their postop recovery. I just want to tell you I'm praying for your physical and emotional comfort and that you'll rest well tonight! Margaret  xoxox

[bama88]

thanks angel. I've been on ice so much the past week. before and after. i think my calf is permanent frozen. lol. and yes im elevated on a wedge pillow. i would so love some sleep. and because im on my sectional im in front room. mom sleeps with me. she won't leave me be. i guess i should be happy im not having to do anything. i don't sleep. between her and other people waking me. and my mom is hard to deal with. the first two nights she drank so heavy. i haven't seen her in five years. and her drinking addiction is way out of control. it breaks my heart. so here i am surrounded by addicts lol. nothing wrong in that. because im one too. so you think the lidoderm is a waste of time

[rnangel]

Awe sweetie you are breaking my heart :( Ice is always a good idea. You can safely take tylenol and ibuprofen together cuz they have different actions. Ibuprofen inhibits prostaglandin production which cuts the signal that triggers the body's inflammatory response and decreases sensitivity to pain at the site. And tylenol alters the intensity the central nervous system receives pain signals...just in case you're wondering. Not sure how much the patch will help since the pain is internal. Keep the leg up as high as you can. Toradol is a kick asss anti-inflam. Maybe get some in the morning? You're definitley in my thoughts darling. I'll be sending up some prayers for you xoxo

[bama88]

to all detoxing now...if i can do this...surely you can do that. im in torture. want to trade places? i think detox was easier than this...on the other hand i don't know...all the symptoms i had. at least when i stop my meds i won't have to buy depends. i think tomorrow ill see if i need any at all. not that im superwomam. but i know they are not working or i won't let them work. either way i never ever got in front of this pain. i woke up from surgery feeling this way. you know i hurt when ambien won't knock me out. or at least i know im in pain when ambien won't work...so its my torture time. and here comes mom...so im gonna watch Casablanca now.

[bama88]

it defiantly hurts more when my foot is down. im elevated right now. i have to keep my leg straight with toes pointing up. i had to escape my mom. she means well enough but im used to taking care of me all by myself. or until hubby gets home.all i did was ride in car for about an hour. i was not happy with my mom. lol. and didn't want to argue with her. so now she's saying...don't cry to me when you hurt. i tried to help you. you need the medicine. rhe doctor told me so. well i told her they don't work and she wanted to call him up. change meds. god love her she just isn't in rhe loop. so i took her pills to make her happy and spit them out. my husband caught me. but he gets it. and i don't want her getting me stronger medicine. no thanks. i am not strong enough to resist certain meds. i talked to the doctor about this before. he thinks i have reset my baseline pain with rhe oxycontin abuse. he was a bit nervous going in surgery with such a small recovery time. and he choose the percs. he thought if he put me back in the oxcododne family id do better. wrong wrong wrong. we will see what i can or can't do tomorrow. and so many people are checking in on me so i want to be awake. totally different mind set this surgery. i know im supposed to hurt. so i do. i know i can't be 100% comfortable now. so why try. before i would have took and took and took Korea and more and more imtil i achieved my desired high without pain. now i grit my teeth.

[atthebeach]

hey look at you going out 2 days after surgery. does it hurt more when you put the leg down? it seems like it should be elevated. you are right if the pain pills arent working, just dont take them. try higher doses of motrin or tylenol. i think it would be ok to use the patch. praying for your healing
hugs
debbie

[bama88]

from 9pm until i pass out at 4am i am in a silent torture chamber. we even tried two percs at a time and nothing. give me a tordal and i am happy. i wish they would have ivd the tordal like in hospital. and last time i had a pain pump stuck in knee for first 4 days. i want that lidoderm pump...i don't know why he didn't do that this time. what if i put a lidoderm patch on the backside of my knee? would it numb it down? im scared to try. but getting desperate. again its just lidoderm. so i think it would work

[bama88]

i want to feel good now!!! lol. im so swollen on this one i sit lopsided. and i am tired of feeling my heartbeat in my toe. i don't get that one. my big toe hurts. oh and the turnicate they used is bruised all around my thigh. talk about hurting. I've iced so much that i don't think its a good idea

[rnangel]

Awe feel better soon..Ibuprofen, Tylenol and Ice :o)

[bama88]

anyways i was thinking I've got another two to three big bad days. and i even got out of the house today. i made my husband drive me anywhere. i had to escape my mom. she doesn't get addiction. and yells at me every 6 hours. i actually spit out two percs today. why bother of they don't work. could i have talked myself into such a state that they will not work? or is it my brain wanting oxycontin? either way.. i am doing fairly partly cloudy today. if i can get up and down stairs three days later im doing good. im still using my walker. i can't let go of that. im scared to step on my own. im very scared of physical therapy pain. oh that one is a big huge hour of torture me time. so far so good.