About to give it the old college try....again

[bear_necessities]

I'm about to embark into the world of opiate detox once again.  I've got 35 7.5 hydros that my dad is going to dispense to me over the next 10 days starting tomorrow.  I'm doing a very quick taper relatively speaking.  I've acquired 5 days off of work starting on the 14th, and I really I hope that is enough time.  I'm about to start gathering supplies for the Thomas recipe, and easy to prepare groceries for me and my kids.  I'm open to any and all suggestions.  As well as all forms of encouragement.  For those wondering how much my intake is its anywhere from 60-80 mgs of hydrocodone a day with a little oxy, hydromorphone, and heroin mixed in when I can get it.  

[clean_in_ks]

Your plan sounds GOOD!  Go for it....you will make it this time...your cracks are sealed....you have a very wise plan....good on ya!

[kyle505]

Congrats. You did some very difficult yet necessary things to help assure your recovery. You will get through the physical part of withdrawal, but it's always the mental struggle that gets us in the end IF we don't do what you've done. I expect to see your 60 day clean post - it will happen before you know it.
K

[Ann2497]

Good luck to you.  Sounds like you have a good plan.  I would add one thing, if you had problems with anxiety stay away from anything with caffeine and limit your sugar intake as much as possible.

[bear_necessities]

To answer your first question, I have told my family what is going on to get all the support I can get so I don't have to feel alone this time.  My brother and I are going to start going to meetings as soon as the initial wds are over.  He is also a recovering opiate addict (almost 600 days clean).  The reason I failed was because, first of all I did not seek after care.  Secondly, access to pills has always been to readily available.  A phone call to my mom could acquire what I needed. Or, a hand into my wife's purse would pull out a handful of pills.  I told my mom that she has been enabling me and she has told me she will never give me another pill again.  My wife is no longer going to keep her pills in the house.  I've learned this is so much more than making it through the withdrawals.  This is a life long responsibility  that has to be taken one day at a time.  

[brokenspiritandsoul]

Hi fellow Texan!  I can't give much advise as I am only on 50 hours CT of 20 plus norcos a day!  Its not fun but I am still breathing!  Lol. I quit and relapsed so many times!  This time I cut my sources, told my secrets and started in a recovery group!  I am a single mom with 2 kids but I am making it!  I just keep telling myself that it is the flu!  You can do this!  Best wishes!  I am here if you need to talk!

[marycarmel]

Sounds like you've put a lot of things in place and you'll be really prepared for the physical withdrawals. You probably already know, though, that you need to set up some kind of aftercare, AA, NA, counseling, something.  It's great your dad is helping you through this.

[kyle505]

You are trying this again...First question - what are you doing different this time?
Second question, why did you fail last time?
Third question, did you learn anything from that relapse, and/or all of your other relapses?
Since you've been through this before I don't have to tell you that just "trying" won't work. You have to truly be ready, otherwise you'll fail. You have to have a long-term plan for recovery in place, and you have to be willing to do all that is necessary to get and stay clean.
I wish you only the best.
K