lisa do you know where in california your daughter is. i live in cali and my best friend lives in vagas.
My heart and prayers that your daughter will be safe and you will find the strength to deal with all that you are going through are going out. I know your addiction seems secondary to your situation with your daughter right now and I really can't say that I wouldn't break under the pressure. I have under much less. We can only say that this will not help your daughter. We as well as yourself know using, drinking is not in your best interest and if I could help shoulder some of your pain right now I would. I'm afraid if you begin using right now --pills or booze it will be a quick downward spiral. I lost my first son to a brain tumor when he was 10 and I didn't use then. It was HELL. I had casually used other pills/ booze but kinda more to party in the early 70s...hippie ya know. I don't know why I didn't use then. I never resorted to it when I had a problem but just when I was having fun w my friends. I can think of reasons that I'm glad... I was fully there for my son and my other kids...I delt with the emotions instead of putting the drug bandade on. If you don't allow these emotions to manifest they will not go away. They will posion you as quickly as the drugs. I'm praying for your daughter and for your strength but if you can't make it you know everyone will still be here to help you through day 1 and .......
As far as drinking and even thinking about doing drugs. Is that what will help you when you do find your daughter? Do you want your daughter to be rescued by a mother that has been drinking and is using again? How clear will your thinking be when you will need to make a quick, life changing decision? You know I really care about you but you can't ever justify this behavior for any reason! You need a sound mind now more than ever. Turn to God for your strength. Give Him your cravings. Let Him take care of you.
We all will be praying for the safe release and return of your daughter, Tanya. And that you would have peace.
Try posting story and description on California Craigs List ,its readership is pretty amazing just an idea
600 mi south of Vegas would put her in southern ca. could be heading for Mexico? Can you contact Baja port of entry to be on look out for car? Your daughter is in my prayers and you are close Limbo