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[tigerlily75]

Well, my other thing was running way long, plus i have a brand new attitude! I fought through this horrible day, and then realized i have i think 2 weeks clean today! And then I read through my whole other thread and all of this led ti me believing i can do this, i can make it, and i need better aftercare this time! so im going ti go to na, my therapist, church, here, and het me a sponsor!

[Dane74]

NOW YOUR TALKING!!!  Im digging your enthusiasm!!!  

[tigerlily75]

Thanks Dane! I'm feeling better because I'm thinking better! Gotba pretty good nights sleep, got kids to school, now the day is nice and brand new!!!

[Kbusymom]

Good for you!!  You can absolutely do this!!

[tigerlily75]

Thanks busymom! I've decided to use your aftercare plan, along with a few things others here mentioned. So I should make it! I hope so! I'm going to work it hard this time!

[OpenMind24hours]

It's that attitude that's important. At my meetings we have a saying "a good attitude is gratitude". Congratulations on two weeks clean and keep up the positive thinking!!

[tigerlily75]

Thanks openmind!

[mommymarieme]

Congrats on 2 weeks! Love the positive attitude! Keep up the good hard work :)

[dominosarah]

Love the new attitude!!!   When we dont have time to be sick we make the time to be well~

You go girl!!

[tigerlily75]

Thanks mommymarieme! I'm going to keep pushing and fighting and keep it positive!

dominosarah, I don't know if you read the end of my other thread but you and that story was what woke me up and decide to change my attitude and work this hard and positive as I can! Thank you SO much!

[Sonrissa]

Hey girl! Keep believing, cause you can do this! Attitude is absolutely everything. Stay focused and dig deep for strength. A good sense of humor and laughter helps a lot. I think that helped save me while going through this process! Keep singing the old Mary Tyler Moore theme song. Google it if you're too young to remember! "You might just make it after all" Take care, sweetie!

[tigerlily75]

Hee hee thanks and yea I know the song! Lol! Started a new job today and had more of my tooth fall out, so I am just achy and cramping and crabby and exhausted! But I'm trying to just pull through...im doing laundry now but also watching stupid comedy movies and relaxing with the kids, trying to distract myself...i am certainly on the wild rollercoaster woo hoo

[brandiroars386]

You have a whole ne attitude shining through and it looks awesome on you!!!  You are going in the right direction, distracting yourself can make things go a lot smoother.  Keep up the great hard work.  YOu are doing this!!

[Sonrissa]

I know, I know, the roller coaster! Just buckle up, and hang on, and ride it out! :)

[tigerlily75]

Thanks brandiroars! I'm trying so hard to get this right and with a positive attitude! Its pretty hard really, but I'm trying to remember how I am the one who got me here and I have to get myself out, might as well be positive instead of miserable!!! Distractions and positive thinking and thinking about how much better my children deserve, and talking on here is so helpful! Thanks to everyone for walking through this with me! I'm going to make it this time!!!

[VICourageous]

I just seen a tape about Positive thinking..It said the Universe of Attraction..It is how our though process is..If we keep thinking Positive then all around us will bring on the positive..If we do negative then all around will be negative. I guess it is like the saying; If you see someone with out a Smile, give them Yours.
I like what Sonrissa said..NOW YOUR TALKING!!! lol
Bless

[John_Frost]

Hey you are doing great. The positive approach and seeing everything positive will definitely guide you to the right way. There are many people in Toronto who depend on addiction counselling just to get that believe in them to fight against their addiction and start all over again. God bless you friend.

[tigerlily75]

Yea, I have studied some on positive thinking, the law of attraction, think positive attract positive...im trying to actually put it in place now!

[gnarly_1]

Hey girl  go to see your feeling better keep pushing forward and put in the same effort to your aftercare as you did to your active addiction and always remember you just have to do this ''just for today''
.........................................Gnarly.............................

[tigerlily75]

Well im trying to keep it positive and keep distracted and just keep it moving...but honestly this is hard! I don't want any pills.  But this new job is kicking my butt! then I come home cook for my kids, and I feel like I just ran a marathon and got hit by a bus at the finish line! I'm a single mom used to doing a million things a day, and I can't hardly do anything! I am so exhausted and my whole body just aches!

[Sonrissa]

Hang in there Tigerlily, I know it's tough. Take a long soak in the tub with Epsom Salts. It will really help with those achy muscles. Relax with a cup of tea (preferably Sleepy Time if you have it). You've had a long, hard day and you deserve to rest and relax. Stay strong, we are here with you!

[Pat1956100]

"You can't hardly do anything"??

You just worked all day and then came home and cooked a meal for your kids.  That sounds like a lot to me.  I think you are doing amazing.

[tigerlily75]

Ahhhg thanks everyone! My only new coping skill is posting here. And you guys always come through! I'm going to go take a Epsom bath now, with candles. :) and take some Tylenol. I just feel guilty because I'm a single mom and I really don't have time for myself even regularly, and now I'm working and sick and tired and everything else...

[tigerlily75]

Well, I sat in the Epsom salt bath and thought about life and these posts, and it hit me, I'm so used to doing a million things a day, and a huge issue for me is I really have no time for myself. I only happened to be able to even take my own quiet bath because I happen to have someone that was willing to sit with my kids. I still haven't done na, because there's no time. Now in working all day, trying to sleep at night, and when I'm home me and every one else, especially by parents I've moved back in with me expect me to be superhero. Your right I did alot today, but I still feel guilty because everyone expects me ti come home from work all day, cook a gourmet meal, and clean, and never take an eye off my kids and WOW um im getting stressed just thinking about it...this might be a reason I kept taking those evil pills

[Pat1956100]

Yes it probably was a reason you kept taking them.
I was a single mother and I can remember one day feeling so guilty because I was sitting in my kitchen feeding my son baby food out of a jar and I wasn't even dressed yet.  I pictured "Leave it to Beaver's MOM" in her pearls and just felt like such a loser.
Then I told someone how I felt and there answer was, "That's a television show, it's not reality".  I really did feel better after that.
We aren't SUPER anything.  We are human.  We have good days and bad days.  We do what we can.  Just watch some Roseanne episodes on youtube and you will feel better lol.  Roseanne Rocks.