norco divorce day 4

[perchance23]

I have my feet firmly planted in day 4. 73 hours into this and still fighting. That's 24 pills i didn't take. Its not easy but I am trying to stay positive.  Just took the meletonin and hope to sleep. I was so worried about sleep and keeping my hubby up I've been sleeping in the other bed but tonight I m gonna try to stick it out with lots of extra covers on my side. Has anyone gotten heartburn from the vitamins?  I never get it but feel it now. Sneezing is a joy. My body is waking up!  Thanks to all my.cheerleader.

[perchance23]

81 hours in. Have to go to training today. Packed all my vitamins and good snacks. Lots of water. I know the person at the place pretty good so I can use the flu card if I need to leave early. I an finally maybe sorta seeing the light. But then again someone said days 4 and 5 are the worst. JkG. Thanks all for the support.

[laurel453]

i had that heartburn too so i stopped taking them for the first week and started again when i was feeling better the next week...yeah, days 3 and 4 are usually the worst but each one is different and you will see how you are feeling.... In any case,  the flu card is a good one ( symptoms are similar ).... CONGRATS on these 81 hours, feel proud :)

[LeaAnn807]

Congrats!  You're doing great!  DRINK that water.  Even if you're in the potty every 15 minutes.  Be sure you have some imodium too.  Never know when the "you know whats" will hit!  

The hardest physical part is definitely over.  You may not feel real good, but it won't get any worse than what you've had!

[perchance23]

Thank you all. I am just taking it a minute at a time.

[StuckANDscared]

Congrats!  I am on here today after not sticking to my taper schedule as strictly as I was supposed to - feeling guilty - but knowing in my heart of hearts that THIS TIME WILL BE THE TIME I WIN THIS BATTLE!  Your success gives me hope.

4 or 5 days seems like an eternity to us in this situation...but it's the blink of an eye in the history of your life.  Think about how fast time flys when we're loaded with busy schedules and appointments to keep...those days where we say, "Wow...it's Friday already...where did the week go?"  You are over the worst of it...stay strong.

Are you taking an Amino Acid Formula...GNC makes a wonderful one that has kept me sane and feeling MUCH better than usual through cutting down and tapering.  They are cheap too...I'm taking triple what the bottle tells me to take (don't worry this was approved by my doc who knows the deal) and I can honeslty say I feel alright.  I still feel like I'm in hell when I'm in full blown WD's - when I don't take anything for 24+hours...but I'm on the 4th layer of Hell instead of the 7th. :-)

Keep it up...you can do this.

[perchance23]

The forth day is *blanking*  in a class where I have to just sit. Ug. Just keep going. JKG.

[dominosarah]

Just keep going!  You can do this!

[perchance23]

Thanks. You seem to be my.only.cheerleader. can anyone.tell me.when the night sweats will go away?  

[perchance23]

I just read a post that it will take upto 90 days to feel better. I am close to.90 hrs I can't even imagine fighting this hard for.90 days. Or even 9 days. I don't want to go backwards even but that was hard to hear.

[atthebeach]

please dont be discouraged by the post about 90 days.
remember we said time will be the healer.
dont worry about 90 days,30 days or even tomorrow.
just now that is all we have.
i am reminding you its a marathon not a sprint.
you didnt get addicted in 30 days and you wont be totally healed in 30 days.
recovery is a process.
each day will be a new and different day.
the most important thing is that you have started the journey.
the road called recovery is long and winding. there are some major bends in it. the mile markers are usually 30,60,90 days these are huge accomplishements.
no you wont have to fight each second of your life. it will get easier.
today is the day you have to get through.
be encouraged you are winning the battle.
stay strong, think positive.
keep yourself busy.
i am praying for you and sending hugs
debbie

[Tattoo67]

I am on my 18th day clean and it has been the best 18 days in years.  Even though its been tough I know I am doing the right thing for me and my family.  Life is tough enough without having to keep up with a drug habit.  If I spend half the effort I spent to stay high on living clean this should get better and better everyday.  

[perchance23]

I absolutely know this is the right thing to do. And its just a bit of tough love. And reality. I've just been fighting so hard to just get by. Minute.by minute. Step by step. I wanted a week to be huge. On break from training tear streaming down my face. Gotta dig deep. Trying....

[rcj1180]

totally agree with the minute by minute attitude.  that's all I can handle right now
(>24 into withdrawal - 15 lortabs a day)
keep going ! you can do it!!!

[snakejones]

Awesome, honey! I am so proud of you. Are you starting to see and feel good things ahead? You've got a great attitude, and that will carry you far as well. Again, yayyyyy!

[perchance23]

I survived the training class! Woohoo. Even.learned a few things. Gonna head home.and take a walk. Some one said epson salt to replace the salt lost. Well I took that a different direction. I love sunflower seeds and they really got me thru the day. Helped with the anxierty too.

[perchance23]

I sang to the radio on the way home. Felt great.

[LeaAnn807]

Hey, that's awesome!  Doesn't it feel good to know that the worst is behind you?  Now, you just have to figure out how to keep it from happening to you again!?  

[perchance23]

I have an appointment with my.previous counselor next week. I know what my triggers are. Stress. Perfection complex. Anxiety at work. And im gonna work with her to find other ways to address this. Yeah me!  
Oh and I made dinner tonight and ate almost all of it. I see the light. Anyone starting out its tough but manageable with suppliments and a good support team.

[LeaAnn807]

Ewwwwww.....I have that perfection thing going too!  It's wonderful that you're addressing it.  And eating will help you feel better.  I remember the first time I ate something besides a cracker during WD.  I really noticed a big difference!

I'm proud of you!  You're doing great!

[perchance23]

Hello Day five!  I am starting to turn the corner. The vitamins and such are kicking in. Riding it into day 5.
Glad someone understands the perfection complex. Are you a first born?

[atthebeach]

Wow you sound great. Good for you.be proud.you are doing great.
What a difference a few hours made. That is awesome.
cooked and ate now that is an accomplishment.
Good job on making the counseling appt.
You are going to be just fine
Happy.happy
Hugs and continued blessings
Debbie

[LeaAnn807]

Yes......and I have a perfect younger sister to share life with! LOL  I swear, lately I've started thinking that I'm kinda borderline OCD and ADD too.  I can't quit moving.  It's weird cause during WDs, I couldn't sit still.  Then felt like NO energy.  Then napping every day.  NOW.....I'm bouncing off the walls until nighttime and I'll literally DROP into bed!  I have a 9 year old and 3 year old (next month!) and so energy is a good thing!!! : )  But I'm already obsessing about halloween costumes and Maddie's birthday next month!  

Everything has to be PERFECT!!!!!!!! LOL  

[limodan73]

Hi, just wanted to respond to your post. I go through the same things. And, honestly, I have accepted that I AM slightly OCD and also been diagnosed with Manic/depressive. It *****, cuase for me it the UPS that drive me to relapse. UGH, but I spoke with my doc and we are working on it. Stay with it, it always gets better.

[perchance23]

Thanks all. I have stuck to.my docs advice and worked with the pharmacy on my vitamins. I am tired but its a good tired. Going to try to sleep. Thanks.