I'm back.....

[troubled900]

Hello to everyone!  I joined this forum back in December with sincere intentions of stopping my Lortab addiction.  I posted, and many of you replied.  However, I failed in my attempts.  I read a lot of your posts about the w/d and I realized how bad I had really become.  This terrified me and I couldn't bring myself to even look at this website again.  Now I'm back, and this time it's not exactly by choice.  I think I mentioned before that I'm a nurse...well, yesterday I pretty ,much got busted.  Don't get me wrong, I've wanted to quit for a VERY long time, but I knew that it was going to take something like this before I would.  I just don't have the self control.  So, now I'm facing loosing my job and my nursing license.  To make matters even worse, my husband still doesn't know.  I don't know what I'm going to do now.  I do know that I'm going to quit...I don't have access to the drug any more.  For this, I am certainly grateful. I have just enough pills right now to fight off the w/d tomorrow, then I'm c/t and I don't have anything to help with the symptoms.  I could certainly use some support.  I promise not to abandon the forum again.  Thank you all so very much!

[Mikeinthesouth]

glad you are back. Mike

[Mookiegal]

You may not know this, but this is the beginning of something new.  Quit your job and perhaps there will be no further action.  Re-evaluate your career, but first and foremost get healthy and clean.  It helps to come clean to the people who love you.  They will stand by you and honesty is the first step to really kicking this.

I, like you am a Nurse and I have worked in all kinds of environments.  I quit my job before my addiction became a problem and promptly placed myself in places where I had no access.  I came clean to my family.  I was surprised how much support I received.  It is ok not being "perfect".

Even though I no longer work as a Nurse, I still found ways to continue my addiction.  I am on Day 2 of Withdrawels.  One of many attempts.  I plan to focus this time on Recovery.  I am completely honest to all about my addiction (Percocet)(Vicodin).  They either accept it or they don't.

I am looking for other avenues to change my life so that maybe, just maybe my life is wonderful and satisfying without pain pills.  I'm looking into starting School again and changing my profession.  I believe that something needs to change or I won't.

Good luck to you once again.  I have most definitely been in your boat.

[avisg]

Welcome back to the forum.I am sorry things have gotten to this point .WD will be rough but you can get threw it . If you look to your lower right you will see where it says "health pages".Look for "the Thomas recipe".It has supplments that will help you threw WD.Stick around there is tons of support here.
Avis

[cathy5841]

oh girl, i hate that you are facing such detrimental consiquences for your actions.  but, it is a good thing you are quitting.  how much and what mils did you take?  look in the health pages and get the thomas recipe.  it will help alot.  also try yo exercise as much and as soon as possible.  it helps the brain start repoducing those endorphins.  and take hot baths will epsom salt.  it helps SO much.  of course heating pad for the legs.  and do stay connected here.  with out this place i would not be over 4 months clean.  i snorted oc's for a long time.  you can pm me if i can help you anytime.  i am on most of the day and nite. lol
cathy