oxy withdrawal having very hard time shaking the demon,is there a light at the end?

[wantstobehappy345]

Hello everybody my name is Nikk im 16 years old and im addicted to the hellish demon spawn called oxycontin i have been using for roughly 1 and a half,75%the time i've been running from withdrawal i have stopped before but relapse i have relapsed roughly 5 times since january (forgive my spelling and punctuation but i just feel horrible) each of these withdrawals my mother has been with me everystep of the way of course not knowing anything about the symptoms and the drug but she still did a superb job and for her to stick with me through 5 or 6 relapses i am greatful for and certainly have mistreated her having her put up with my stupidity,days ago i hit that rock bottom where it kind of makes you turn your life around, i use everyday with the absolute nasty way of snorting the pills, ive done 80mg over the course of a day to keep withdrawal distant to 100mg i dont EVER use this to get high except for when i started roughly for 4-5 months if i wanted to be stoned i would have to snort about 60mg and i absolutely hate the "buzz" or "high" anyway, i only live with my mother and sister who i love more than anything in this universe, if it wasnt for the thought of being able to mess around with them again someday , i have lost my friends, girlfriend, family, education, just my whole life but want to turn this completely around and spend everyday with my family who i have ignored because of this poison far too long im very sorry for such a long rambling on and on post im just lonely right now and scared cause i know whats coming, just hoping someone who was like me at a time can please assure me there is a light at the end of this very long and dark tunnel thanks everyone **by the way have been off roughly 10 hours but feel like garbage, well it has to get worse to get better**

[daysofourlives]

im actually taking webritn for anti despr and smoking so i think that will help..i have been takinh the welbruton about 2 months..i know im only 30 i need to enjoy my life as a REAL person..its day 2 and im ok,,i did not sleep last night maybr 4 hours off and on..but i feel ok now,,just tired and my legs its not bad yet ..i can do it i know i can..i need to have a wife whose proud of me and a mom who REALLY adores her 4 year old,,plus if i wanna have a kid it months or so that will b it..so it great im cleaning out myself..does each day get better??tomorrow will b better then today,,any ideas..im drinking lots

[gigi311]

Ooh my friend,GOD help you,you are still very young.Dont allow the devil to grab you by the balls again and again.I am almost 39 now,I have been addicted for about 16 years to just any pain-killer I could get my hands on.I myself am now taking SUBOXONE for my drug addiction.Its a big big help for me now.Please,try this medication,not all M.Ds can prescribe this medication(SUBOXONE). They must take special classes and also carry a special license.Its well woth it my friend.GOD help you,keep strong.

[daysofourlives]

oo wow u just  quite too??yes i guess it doe sseeem better but iys like ur living a lie..plus dosent it seem better with whomever u r around..i do so much more i do so mcu more with my son:)on the pills im lazy i say ill take i tdo it and it will all b good but i sometimes dont even do it..off the pills i do..i just think its better imme real REAL me:)it justthese first few days suck but i guess i gotta deal with it..any good tips on wht to do..its day 2 and im ok..bu tlike around 9 my legs start up..then to go to bed **** ..i take stuff to hep me sleep..but still..each day gets better right??day 2..dosnet ever day get better..plus its the weekend:)thanks for talking..i cant really talk after 6..but advise words of wisdom always help make me say yea i coul ddo it:)

[ram77777]

Do we ever really want to stop and live a "NORMAL" life? How many of us really want to stop. How many people of us don’t get along with other, and doesn`t remember how to and really desire to start all that from square one. How many of us are willing to get a good job, get along with "coworkers". Get home drink a glass of milk and go to bed. Wake up in the morning and repeat the cycle again without needing a thing. How many of us really think the "OTHER" life brings more happiness and joy
Ok spare me cus this is my second day chasing the dragon  

[daysofourlives]

how do u hate the pills??cuz my life with everyone i soooo diff??day 2 feel ok so im guessing each day is better im hopin tomorrow to goout a lil with my hubby..juxt wanna know how tolive life without needing ANHTHING im sick of thatatttttttttttttt.loke if i goout tomorrow wih my hubby ill say im gonna go smoke first he knows aboutthe weed not annything else and he could neverrrr so u guys r all i have i need positive thought if anyone can helpPLEASEEEE

[daysofourlives]

thanks for answering me everyword helps..i dontthink sitthatnad i was only taking for 6 weeks so it prob wont b as bas as last time well i hopw i reasted all day yesterday and today so i guess thats good..im taking welbrtin for ant dep and it also helps u quick smoking so hope fully that will help..ijust wann aknow how do go thru life without thinkimg ok i have to take something oin order to to wife things all that stuff..and ukno whats funny i get along soooooo much beetre with my hubby when im off..weird huh..any other ideas besides other meds for w/d but its day 2 n its better then yesterday so i guess each day does get better

[ram77777]

Oxi… Not easy, been there done that.  Being this a opium derivation, the withdraw syndromes are hell.  I`m not telling you to do what I did, or if your Therapist would agree…
Ok in my case I started a controlled substance treatment; in which I had a quota of other opium derivations which were less aggressive. I adapted myself in a short period of time and the withdraw symptoms weren`t as bad. The reduction of the alternative drug was “nothing” compared to the other.
I hope you understand what is above… took me 20 min to write It

[daysofourlives]

i stopped 2 dys ago but i feellike i always have to take something or smoke somwthing to do whatever needs to b done is that in my mind aswell i say ok ill atke a pill to cook work etc so now i sas w ill smoke weed ..and i did that last time when i quit for the 2 months what do i do about that..i dont want one to tzake the other buti guess people do it everyplace drug free and edeal with it...do u have any ideas??

[SickofThis1]

Hey glad to hear your choosing to be clean! If your comming down off of the O's its going to be very hard, but it can be done. You maybe should have tried to cut your dosage down bit by bit first. But your headed in the right direction. You will get sick, we all have, but it does pass with time. I feel so much better now that Im not doing them anymore, and you will to, I promise! Good luck  Oh, by the way that light at the end of the tunnel.....it does get brighter, bigger and much brighter, you just have to walk slowly towards it, step by step, and you will see! Best wishes honey I hope you do it! I have faith in ya! Hell, we all do around here!

[daysofourlives]

any ideas its day 2 n im ok i guess but weachday gets better right i heard 72 hours well i should know lol..what do i tell myself when my mimd keeps saying ok take a pill and then do the laundry or work so instead weed is taking the place but weed makes the wd bwtter what do i tell myself..i guess these things need to get done so just put a smile on and doooo it

[bidane]

don't give up.. keep up ur spirit...

[daysofourlives]

i dont wanna take anything for the withdrawels plus im on welbriut so that helps a luil i guess..i guess wishfull thinkingday 2 felt like **** last night,,but its day 2 so thats greaat i just waanna know how i can do everything without my mind saying i need pills to do that or if im off the pills i say weed i just wants some ideas please helppp..n im on day 2 after a 6 week bing my w/d will prob b over with 72 hours i hefre so everyday gets better right??not worse

[bkwrm679]

Hi, I would recommend seeing your doctor and getting some Clonidine if you can. For me it made the withdrawals much less terrible. I still feel like I'm crazy because of how long I've been lying in bed with my thoughts, but I've done withdrawals with and without Clonidine, and with is a hundred times better. Some people can't take it because it lowers their blood pressure too much, but your doctor would know all about that. Hope this helps.

[daysofourlives]

hi on day 2 of trying to quit for the 100th time this i will do it..the pills r demons i have a husband and a 4 year old and we wznt more..he doesnt know abou tmy pills and he can never know..im SUCH A BETTER Person off of them we dont fight..i just dont get it y do u always have to take a pill to mske something BETTER to do laundry work kids everything im on 24 hrs from stopping after taking for for 6 weeks again..but b4 those six weeks i was clean 2-3 months..and things were great  i jst dont get y the things we need to do and get done have to b done so just to it and put a smile on cause it has tto get done n by me sayin to myself this ***** just smile it woul dmake it a lot better n it has to get done anytway...lol..and i say i getth epills to do things but i do SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHH more off..dontget it
thanks
xoxo

[reviewer]

readling your post sounds so much like my life right now.  I am a 46 year old woman with a wonderful husband and children and grandkids.  They actualy did an intervention on me yesterday.  I thought I was hiding my secret well but I wasnt.  I was allowing those stupid pills to take my life away.  I am not sure if I have a job any more, I have worked in this profession for 23 years.  My husband is great, he is here to support me, I dont derserve someone to stand by me like that but he does.whitie was right you have to hate the pills and take your life back, just like I have to take mine back.  I am scared to death but I know I must do it.

[whitie]

the more you hate the pills,the better off you are.

sounds liek you know what you are in for, the question is do you think you can manage them better in the future or are you %100 committed to quiting, for good?

[Beachwalker33]

I don't take Oxy's and my meds are prescribed.But there similar.If you need to write,I'll be here!

[Beachwalker33]

You can do it! And guess what so can I.I know the awful shaking,vomiting,diarrhea,sweating but your cold but your hot.It ***** doesn't it.The dry heaves,the feeling that your gonna die.You will if you keep doing this so STOP know.I'm here with,if your Mom isn't this time.Love, Jen