Day 4 Begins in 4.5 Hours

[wholenewworld]

Good Morning, All-

(Dosage - 100-120mg lortab/day  //  Period of Abuse - 3 months)

Noon today will begin Day 4 of my CT withdrawals. The depression is still unbearable but, so far, seems to be slightly better than yesterday. Last night's sleep was broken and dream filled, but ANY sleep I get at this stage I will thank God for, and be grateful.

I still have the runs and must force down any food as my appettite has yet to return. Mild headaches persist but are manageable. No other real physical symptoms are present at the moment but, as I mentioned in an earlier post, my crutch has always been the bone snapping depression.

I hope everyone made it through the night ok. It'll be no time at all until we find ourselves driving down the road and singing at the top of our lungs!! I'm no stranger to withdrawals. I've always been amazed at just how quickly the days roll by, even when we're at our most desperate and hopeless stages of recovery. The clock NEVER STOPS moving. Before you know it, you're at Day 10......then 20......then 30. Don't quit. Don't stop fighting the addiction. We can do it together.

Look around and recognize the people who want and NEED you. Sons-Daughters-Husbands-Wives-Friends. You owe it to yourself and to them. Stay strong and God Bless.

[wholenewworld]

I'm going to begin an exercise regime today. I'm also taking 5-HTP, which may or may not be helping. Usually, the vitimins and supplements take as long to start working as my withdrawal depression lasts, anyway. I've come to accept that I'll just do my time and when it's over- it's over. Aftercare is something I will start this time around. I'm certain that it's been the missing ingredient. The absense of some type of counseling or therapy is the reason i continue to relapse time and time again.

I'm cursed with a quick recovery, if that makes any sense. In 2-3 weeks, i'll feel normal again. Perhaps it's because I don't usually abuse for periods longer than a few months at a time. But, regardless, i've learned that my addiction never goes away. It simply lays in waiting. It picks up right where it left off.

[vicki595]

You can do this again.  What are you doing to help the depression? Exercise helps A LOT.
Read in the health pages (upper right of this page) about dopamine and endorphins. Once we totally understand what's happening it gets easier to repair it.

Good luck!