Possible relapse?????

[confused456]

I have been dreading this post, but I have to do it. I do not want to go into all the details of it, but I need to post. On Friday night, I got into a huge fight with my a$$hole spouse. Let's just say that I was in some major pain and so I took 3 Vicoden. The strength was 5/500....my DOC was Lortab 10/650. I took one pill every four hours starting at 4a.m. and ending at noon Saturday. By Saturday night, my stomach was in so much pain that I couldn't even walk, so I went to the ER, when I got there, my blood pressure was through the roof and they gave me an IV, then I was given 2 doses of Dilaudid (which I had never had before), and then 2 hours later, I got a 3rd dose of Dilaudid. I got a bunch of tests done and all the fun stuff, but my main concern is whether or not this is a relapse? I have not taken anything since the ER visit.

[sadinmichigan]

hey there girl..called your "digits'...i'll be here if you want to talk..Love you Lisa

[confused456]

Desperate....No problem at all, no offense taken really! I thank you though but you are fine sweetie!!

[desperate1111]

i want to apologize to you for suggesting "mental pain" and referring to your spouse as a possible trigger. i was apparently seeing your post thru my eyes (and my problems). and i am sorry. i hope you get all better soon.

[confused456]

Lisa....ya, I was up late and up early....LOL....and yep, he left for work.

[sadinmichigan]

hey girl..you were up late..and up early..Probably getting the children off to school..I am doing that now..I hope your pain is getting better..I have to drive the kids today with a school project..is he at work yet?  Talk to you soon I hope..
Xo Lisa

[confused456]

Thanks Geri-rose. I thank you for commenting. It is good to hear from you!!

[chef4u]

No hun this is not a relapse as drug addicts there will be times that we will need to take drugs for pain, surgery ect. I know from N.A that is not considered a relapse dont beat yourself up just take care of you!! forget the bull of your spouse you are who is important in the end we are the only ones that can take care of us! I hope your med problems resolve them selves as always your in my prayers

[confused456]

Newgirl!! LMAO...THANK YOU!!! I appreciate it! Thanks for making me smile too, I needed that today!!

[newgirl2708]

This is a bump. We all agree. Done. Get yourself fixed at the Dr. a.s.a.p.

Now....
I've got my truck keys and am on my way to pick up Mike, Vic, Cadilac, Cathy, Sad, Corey, trouble and worried and all of the others who posted (sorry, my fingers got tired)
and going over there to kick your husbands a$$...I'm in California and you guys are all across this great country of ours..so it may take me a bit, But I'm on my way......!!!!!!!!

[confused456]

Thank you Cathy. I am not feeling real important at the moment, feeling more like a big old pile of dog $hit, but I appreciate it!! Love you too!!

[cathy5841]

we love you...you are important here.  we are here for you
love ya

[confused456]

I just wanted to thank ALL of you again. I really appreciate you all so much!!! THANK YOU!!!!!!

[confused456]

Corey, Lisa, and CadillacJack, thank you all. I appreciate it very much.

Lisa, I replied to your PM.

[CadillacJack]

In my opinion a relapse is starting to use again, and keeping it up. What you did is nothing. Rest assured, everybody, at some stage, will do as you did. Don't sweat the small stuff, you're good.

[sadinmichigan]

I agree with the fact that this is not a relapse..I myself had to take a few pain pills because of my back..I know how much pain I am in and thats what matters. I however have not continued taking them. I took 2 one day and 2 the next day and have had nothing since. They also tried giving my a rx for 10 vicodin at the e.r and I also declined. I am worried more right now about why you are in pain..?????? I am VERY concerned about that..and yes..your blood pressure will be high when you are in that amount of pain..mine was also..Please take care of yourself and don't beat yourself up over a few pills. If you were going to continue to take them then, it may be a relapse..But nobody can judge someone elses level of pain. The fact that we are addicts doesn't mean that at some point in life we may be in a position to have to take a few. I am scared of that just like you are..I understand. i certainly don't want to be back on any meds either..
Do you feel like talking? I have been wanting to call but it never seems like a good time . I care about you alot and am really worried about your health..let me know..i don't want to intrude if you don't feel like it right now, I understand..I'm sorry that you have been having such a hard time and apparently a pretty lousy weekend. You are a strong lady my friend..love you much...Lisa

[corey411]

Confused,
So sorry for what you are going through. It sounds to me like you did a good job controlling what kind and how much pain meds to take. I don't know if I would have been able to do that. That is not a relapse. You were in pain and probably still are. Congratulations on day 85...5 more till 90. Hope things get better for you. God Bless. Corey

[confused456]

Thanks Trouble! I will go back in if I need to. I hate the ER but I am glad that I went. I will keep you all posted. Thanks again.

[troubleinohio]

oh sweety i had no idea this happened to you. I am so sorry that i am behind on posts here. Please PM if you need to talk more in detail as you know i can relate to the spouse problems.  as for your physical pain , I sure hope you are OK!!! Please keep us posted and if you have any additional problems go back to the ER asap!

[confused456]

Worried, Thank you!!!

Mike, my use before this was a prescription of my own, I was on Lortab 10/650 for a total of about 7 years, and never took more than the prescribed amount, I came to this forum because I knew that I was dependent on them and was addicted even though I never took more than prescribed. I knew that I was taking them for emotional pain more than physical pain at that time. I took 3 Vicoden 5/500 on Saturday morning, one at 4am, one at 8am, and one at noon. I did not and have not had any more other than the shots of Dilaudid given by the Emergency Room.

[Mikeinthesouth]

If you took them for pain as you said you only took them every four hours My opinion is no thats not relapse for the recreation of it. Who could accuse you of doing wrong if you were in pain or the alternative no  one should throw stone at you. LOL You are doing right though by cleaning your soul and just don't let it get outta hand because for me it could right off but will not say never going to take anything for pain although if I have to one day I might have to be put in the hospital yto be in a protected enviroment to do so because of my addiction, personality and gluttony when it comes to opiates. I don't know how much or how you used but that sounds to me like taking pain meds for the real reason they are intended for so don't sweat it much. Did you have any Mother's Day at all. I am sorry that Friday and Saturday were not that well for you and hope today and this week makes up for it and is a great one becausxe you are a wonderful person who deserves it.

[worried878]

If there is any physical abuse going on...u really need to address that..I do not know this whole story but am picking up some bits and pieces from the other posts...u gotta keep yourself safe as well as clean girl...i know this is a private issue if abuse is the case and it is not something u may want to post on a public forum....no man has the right to hit a woman...I dont care who it is...and this might not be the case....keep yourself safe girl

[Friend999]

Definitely not a relapse, hon.  You WILL get that 90 days...and 120, ...and.

Please let us know when you hear back from the Specialist.  You "family" on this site would like to know.

Our prayers are with you.

Friend999

[confused456]

Lostdreams and Bobby, thank you both so much.

Avisg....yes, they want to do it soon and I am in pain but not as much as I was when I went to the ER, I had to call the Specialist today and am waiting to hear back about the surgery. i will let you know what I find out.

[avisg]

WOW it sounds like it was a rough weekend .When do they want to do surgery. I would hope if they think there is any possibility of internal injury or bleeding that they do it ASAP.PLZ dont let them put it off !!!! Are you still in alot of pain?