Hi all,
I am almost 3 days sober from Percocet 10/325. I was taking up to 4 or 5 pills a day and not really for pain. In fact, these we being bought off of the street. I have since moved a couple hundred miles away from my THREE dealers, and back in with my mother so that I may properly heal.
I've been drained of so much money, haven't gotten into an incredibly bad financial bind because drugs were before everything: car payment (it got reposessed, sigh, i miss my dodge caliber), energy bill, phone bill, etc. I'm sure my credit score is about - 300.
I had a "drug buddy" in a sense while I was using too. She is a very close friend, and actually, she admitted that she is also in love with me. I believe that we had a very co-dependent relationship going on. We constantly had our minds on drugs and getting them and how long they were going to last us and what we were going to do about getting more. Unlike me, she has a prescription, but also bought from the street as we were both eating up the supply WAY before she was due to get a refill.
My question is, how can someone without insurance living in the U.S., Michigan specifically, get help for addiction? I am "between jobs" since coming home 3 weeks ago, and in a couple weeks the Celexa I got from someone (yep, not through a doctor, because that would just be silly!) will be out. The goal is to go inpatient because I don't feel entirely comfortable going this alone and cold turkey. So far, I am doing better than I expected though.
I am also worried about my natural endorphins being replenished. I have always had issues with depression and even suicidal ideation. Sigh, I'm a brilliant mess. I want to exercise, but on top of everything I have a bad cold. I need those endorphins back! I just want to be a stable, happy man!
Success stories would be much appreciated! I need the encouragement badly!
Thank you,
Luke