pleas help ozgirl

[fpvfem]

Arrrr my legs I've had banananas **** this I'm strong I won't off buti hate this feeling help

[novics]

What can't you take Amanda? I am going through this too right now, maybe I can help?

[fpvfem]

Amanda270 it does get better if it was easy it wouldn't be worthit huni think positive I know its farking hard. Imdone I still ain't gone in its been a battle I'm still holding in there I fully understand what ya sayon I've been telling myswlf I'm cut off it seems to be working so far mwah love from oz

[Amanda270]

Help cannot take it this is so awful I can't do it

[ImDONENoMore]

Hi honey!!  Glad to hear you didn't go in for the meds today.  And you know, I think if you called and had your Dr. ccancel those meds you'd feel better.  Scary at first, true, but it can relieve a lot of the anxiety - I know that sounds strange but I felt relief after I told my Dr. no more (haha I'mDoneNoMore...) - but I'll admit it was a scary kind of relief.  But after a few days, knowing I didn't have anything to fall back on made me feel safer (does that make sense?).  At least early on anyway... so it might be something to think about?  :) (and as always MWAH right back at you!)

[fpvfem]

Still slack but moving round in small timeframes how is everyone else today much love guys

[fpvfem]

hey guys sorry been resting had no energy to type still holdin up baarely was gonna pick my meds up today as I'm on daily pick ups but didn't its not as bad as a month ago but bad enough had a good rest now just watching movies much love from oz mwah

[quitinoxys]

Ozgirl are you there please come back and tell us how ya doing

[Bkitty]

Oh ozzie,,I just wanna jump on a plane and fly down there and hug you. Im so sorry you feel this way and are struggling. I believe in you and I know you can do this,,you already have. (((((((HUGS))))))~Bkitty

[bama88]

Hey fpv how are you today. Please check in. Calling fpv calling fpv.

[ImDONENoMore]

Hey fpv - how you holding up honey?

[Bamnuts]

I know I am not the worst addict on this page and I finally hit rock bottom the other day when my wife says I have. Changed over the last year (SWIM have been doing  Vic's, percs, morphine, and my favorite o contin for 2 years now).
I am a loving father of two 9 yr and 5 yr old daughters.  I can't lose them and my awesome HOT wife!  I make pretty good money and we Are struggling finincially. I rationalize it is not because of the habit then I reluctantly did the math and saw how much money I have WASTED in the last 2 years. Then guilt sets in. I am at the lowest of lows. I was a former world class athlete and even competed at the 1996 us olympics. My brother and I had a gym and it closed 4 months ago.  I wAs at least able to workout and keep my body in shape.  From the gym closing 4 months ago.....I have gained 40 lbs and cannot even see in the night airn see my privates (without a mirror). My fears are dying early for my kids, my wife leaving me, and losing all my nice things In life (house cars, etc....the morale of the story is I quit. COld turkey (my last pill was Saturday at 7pm).  It is now 9:13 as I type And I took enough immodium to stop the diarea. Now the problems are depression an guilt along with insomnia from shakey legs. I have read a lot of sites and everyone says to use benzos for sleep.......why doesn't anyone reccomend ambien?
Is it bad for u?  I M on hour 50 of wd and started a diet today. ( I weighed in at 295.4 ). That was rock bottom along with wasted money. The other problem I think I am going through is alchol wd. I don't use alcohol without a opiate with it........I say what is the point?  AlcOhol is not my drug of choice ......I just use it to maximize my opiate buzz. I don't know but maybe I am going throough a double withdrawal. I M just seeking for help with suggestions and support. I need to "right this ship" and support will help me. I have not told anyone my demons I just want to exorcise t
hem.  I look forward to comments And support!
Take care!

[fpvfem]

I'm tryin so hard theanks for ya hbelp I need kind words mwah

[fpvfem]

I'm cryin cos I know what to do but itys hard I know its not easy just hate that I went back on them fark I'm a mess here

[ImDONENoMore]

Distractions fpv - you know what's going on so the more you distract yourself the less you'll focus on it.  May only be temporary relief but some relief is better than none. Start those hot showers, get moving if you feel up to it or put on some mindless TV or movies and try to watch them.  Get up and take a walk around the house, the yard, whatever, the moving will help even if that feels impossible right now, I know you KNOW it will help.

We're here for you honey you're not alone - you'll get through this I promise you you will.  (mwah) :)

[quitinoxys]

OK first of all take a big DEEP breath, the reason why you are feeling so weak and cramping is because your addictive brain is screaming at you to feed it more opiates. Do not listen to it, try to do some sort of stretching exercise as this will help with the muscle cramps and lack of energy. Get your self some vitamins B6, B12, C, D. Also get some minerals magnesium to help with cramps and absorption of the vitamins. Have you tried the Thomas Recipe it helped me tremendously when I did C/T. Also keep your self hydrated and nurished it will help quite a bit. I will pray for God to take your pain away so hang in there you are doing great. God Bless---Rick

[fpvfem]

So woek a **** I am I'm not caving but fark me

[fpvfem]

Y am I so weak

[lulu747]

You can do this!  Seriously the music really helps...and singing like Sara said.  She suggested it to me when I was on day 2 or 3 and feeling like I wanted to die and it really really worked for me....Big hug....Lu

[ricart70]

Hang in there fp it won't last too much longer.hug for you

[fpvfem]

Thanks evryone I'm tryin so hard. Feel so sick. Much love

[Desperatetoeclean]

I know it does don't give in you can do this. You're going to feel on top of the world when this is done. When I FINALLY won I was and still am so proud of myself that I didn't even care if anyone else was proud of me. I come from a not so great family as far as support and love goes. I used this site as my family cause honestly all the strangers on this site showed me more caring then I've ever felt. Come on here and ramble senselesley believe it or not someone is listening and it helps A LOT. it was by far the biggest thing to help me get clean. Just take by the hour then soon enough the withdrawls go away and you can take it day by day ect..... You're a strong women you got this crap.

[dominosarah]

Turn on some music, listen to it loud or however you like it.  Dance like noone is watching~~Sing like noone is listening~

[IBKleen]

Move. Get up and walk around. If you can go outside and walk then do that. It will help tire your legs and help ease the muscle discomfort. If you can do that for 20 minutes then try a nice hot soak in the tub and cuddle up in something warm and lay down. If you can't sleep---don't lay there tossing and turning. It only makes it worse both mentally and physically. Whatever you do hang in there and don't use. This is only temporary.