please help..percocet predicament

[readynow81]

I am so disgusted and mentally over taking percocet. But physically it isn't that easy. Have been taking about 12-14 5/325's for about 10 months. Lesser amounts before that. Have legitimate spine issues but would rather feel that pain than feel like garbage after taking all these pills. It may not be as much as others but its more than enough for me. no easy answer, i know. but ive had enough. suggest telling pcp?

[janet19]

If you continue the path you are on with the pills, they may come a day when you cannot care for you child the way would you would like. Eventually we get caught, either by a friend, family member or even the police. Pill popping can lead to some bad choices bringing us to do things that we would not normally do. They do one day catch up with us, trust me. I had to fired from my job and almost lost my marriage from my using pills. I hurt a great many people on my way to sobriety. I hurt myself the most, I did not accomplish everything I wanted to in my life and now I am getting old and I am trying to accomplish some of those small things while I still can. It was hard admitting it all to my family, but by the grace of God they understood and they are still at my side, helping me fight this ugly disease all the way. You can be a luck one right now, get out and start fresh before they drag down and into things that you would never think about doing. You are can do this and you are worth this. If you can taper great, but there will still be some withdraws, usually no way around that. They are bad, but you can make them better by just keeping a positive attitude. You can do this!

[janet19]

Tapering off the pills will more than likely help some with the withdraws. The less amt of opiate in your body should make them milder, but you will more than likely have some withdraws. They are manageable trust me. You had labor you can do this I know you can. We are strong, if you were not strong you wouldn't be popping all those pills in one day. You can do this and all of us here will help you along the way.

[readynow81]

I woke up this morning and  quickly logged on to this site. I was hoping for some encouragement and surely enough, there it was. Thank you Janet for all your kind but realistic and "cut to the Chase " comments.  I am going to start today with the taper method.  However, I would like to know that I'm doing it correctly. I would usually take right around 14 pills a day. So I thougt I would go right down to 10 for now. And how  long do I do that for? A few days, then reduce again?  I also have a concern bc I get a monthly prescription for the pills. Do I just say I no longer want to take them? It's a little unnerving knowing that I could do this and then that date rolls around and it could possibly compromise everything. I just feel like its hanging over my head.... there could  be more.... ya know?  And as far as my medical problems, CurleyGirl, I think I will just stick with the physical therapy and cortisone injections. Taking these pills is not worth my life or worth my child growing up with a mom who is partially here only. Dear Lord I hope this helps me. I can honestly say I'm going to give
100%. hope everyone has a good day.

[readynow81]

I didn't get a chance to read your post before responding, Janet. but I have a son. He is my universe. We are inseparable.  
I want this for myself so that I can give him all of me. I feel guilty knowing what I'm doing. I want to be just happy. Nothing needed to get me there. I want to be clear headed and have more  energy. I want to live, I guess. I know it will take time, doesn't happen quickly. But we both deserve it. My husband does too. He knows I take them, but has no clue to what extent or that I can't just stop. He is a good man. Takes good care of his family. He deserves to know the truth I guess. I have such huge issues with pride. And is rather try to handle this, if possible, well, parts of it without him.  Good god what have I gotten myself  into?  I seriously feel lost. But, no time for that. I have projects to make with my son and all kinds if errands to run. Atleast ill be busy. Keep my mind off taking pills every  10 minutes.  

[readynow81]

So the day is coming to an end and I guess so far so good. I started tapering (my first attempt ever at any kind of anything as far as putting the pills down) I usually take about 14 a day, give or take. And my limit today was 10. Im going to call it quits for the night and I'm at #8. It probably was easier for me to take  less bc I took so many yesterday and still had a lot in my system, I'm guessing. We'll see what tomorrow brings and I just have to stay focused and positive and remember that its my life and I want it back. I don't want to be a slave to these little terrors anymore. I started taking them for a real medical reason but its just gotten out of control. Weird for me, I'm a control freak! I dream of the day I wake up  and don't feel like I have to take them. I know its a long ways away, but I'm hopeful. I look at my child and cry sometimes. I see pictures of us at at family gatherings, having a great time and think to myself, I'm such a loser. I was on something, was that all fake? I'm so ashamed and embarrassed. Hopefully I can do this.

[readynow81]

Feeling sad. Wondering if I should just flush them. I'm anxious and just  wanting to get it over with.