please help..percocet predicament

[readynow81]

I am so disgusted and mentally over taking percocet. But physically it isn't that easy. Have been taking about 12-14 5/325's for about 10 months. Lesser amounts before that. Have legitimate spine issues but would rather feel that pain than feel like garbage after taking all these pills. It may not be as much as others but its more than enough for me. no easy answer, i know. but ive had enough. suggest telling pcp?

[readynow81]

@Laurel: thanks so much for your encouragement. i dont think id be where i am  without all the help from this site.im trying to follow all the suggestions as far as hot baths, vitamins, bananas, and just being positive. i think willpower is the biggest factor and when i look at my son it makes all of this easier.im doing pretty well today. I do feel a little jittery and slightly nauseous. But I'm drinking some hot peppermint tea- decaf!! and i really do feel better after a hot bath or shower. Thanks for checking in on me! It reminds me that I'm not alone. I hope you have a great day, and ill do my best to do the same!

[laurel453]

hey, congrats on these 2 days.... at first each day seems a month :)  Make sure that you are drinking a lot of fluids to keep you hydrated, this is very important...eat a  lot of bananas and tomatoes ( they are rich on potassium ), take those really hot baths when your muscles ache , you will feel much better after one bath... Yeah, nights are really tough....sleep is a "dream" and RLS are at their best but it is doable, ready... so be positive :) ..... oopps, don't forget to have immodium just in case :)  and keep posting and telling how you are doing !

[readynow81]

Thanks laurel.  I'm doing all I can to stay positive. It's seems, and I guess makes sense, that things are worse at night. I have less to do as the day comes to an end and my energy level is a little low today. I'm also pretty distracted. I'm finding its taking me longer to do everyday things because ill start something, my mind will go to another idea and ill start something erlse before finishing the  first thing. but it could be worse right now so i dont want to complain. i know its only been 2 days but it seems like forever! tonight my legs feel a little crampy, like the feeling you get with a charliehorse,only not full on. ive taken multivitamin/mineral and some advil but thats it. im still eating & drtinking like normal. I know ill be ok. I just have to accept that its not over night. Hope everyone has a good night.......  p.s. I don't want to jinx myself, but I'm  pretty proud of me!  A few weeks ago I would have thought this was impossible. Thanks to anyone who's given encouragement and kind, but honest words. I am grateful.  :)

[laurel453]

You will be ok, readynow :) .... breath deeply and keep you mind full of positive thoughts... you are doing the best and there is no turning back, All the best and good luck :)

[readynow81]

So yesterday I had my first day, percocet free. I told my husband everything over the weekend. He was wonderful and supportive. Although, he was shocked. He really had no idea I was taking them. He said he noticed mood swings, and I have seemed angry lately,  especially. But never knew I was abusing the pills.  So on Saturday night we flushed them down the toilet. And let me tell you, that was wonderfully liberating and scary at the same time. I was happy and relieved to have told him and have him on my side, and flushing them was necessary. But in my head I could hear.." WTF are you doing? That's over 70 pills!" I was nervous about the wds, and althoug i didnt want them, that pestering,  greedy voice in me was devastated. i cant remember the last time i didnt give in. but im so happy i just decided to get it ovet with.  im also happy i tapered, hopefully the wds wont be as bad as when i took 15 a day, steadily. last night i had some serious sweating. a little anxiety:which i just talked mysrelf out of. and it went ok. today i woke up with a giant headache, but so far nothing else. i will keep myself busy, and pray that itll be ok. i know i have a long way to go, but im ready! and i am still telling my doctor i want no more prescriptions. i have an appt friday and am actuaslly looking forward to it. i hope i am doing ok by then!

[readynow81]

Any ideas how to go about the conversation with my doctor. I plan on being honest, yes. But I feel like I don't know how to start the conversation. I'm nervous as all heck and afraid if what will happen. Not about the script being taken away, this is my idea , remember? But I'm a mother. Can the doctor get cps involved over this?  My child has never been in danger and  is very well cared for despite my addiction. I just want to stop now with the pills before god forbid, there ever comes a time where I can not do what I currently do for my 2 year old. And id like to be  100% focused on him, not him and pills. I'm just scared. He is my world. I would think being honest with the doctor would be a good thing, I just don't want it to backfire on me. Any thoughts would help. And I'm not talking myself out of it, I'm just nervous. I am afterall, human.  Thanks everyone.