Aa
Screwed up AGAIN
Up until 10 minutes ago I was 2 days clean from a 100mg/day norco habit...I only took 20mg for the first 3 days then zero for the last two. I started lookin around thr house and found 7 10's. Took 1,I feel ultra defeated. I have fought this fight for yrs....I don't want to be a slave in chains to this shi* then why can't I just do it??? I WANT TO QUIT.I feel so damn shitt* and worthless. I can tell you I woun't flush them....My family has been helping w/my son cause Ive had a stomach bug...now what a new bug ech week? I gotta wk 2 14hr days Sun/mon, gotta. Is there a magic wand I'm unaware of to fix me? I do want this!!!! I'm weak and stupid and pathetic.I want it alright-just can't work for it.....Please help. I'm calling counselers right now. What is it gonna take for me to stop?liver damage? OD?placing my son in danger? WTF????/
also, I'm with bikerdad on this one. This is a hard struggle and no one is here to judge you. Those who haven't been through this, don't understand that it could happen to anyone. Before my knee surgery, when the doc prescribed the first batch, I asked him if I had anything to worry about since I heard that these are addictive. He said, "not addictive, just habitual....I guess, some people are just stupid." I swear, that's what he said, in those words. I trusted him and took em and, well, you know the rest. Just hang in there.
I'm going through the same rollercoaster, but I'll win this battle, and so will you. The great part is that I have a wonderful wife who's understanding and supportive, although I hate to put her through this since she is five months pregnant and has enough on her plate. Regardless, I tried quitting cold turkey, not by choice though. The first night, wasn't as bad as I thought. Alittle depressed, no energy whatsoever, fatigued, no appetite (that's the only good thing), and probably because I expected it and was ready for it since I've done it before. But the second day, yesterday, was too unbearable. I couldn't sleep at all last night. Tossing and turning. My wife woke up and said that it looked like I was fighting someone, kicking and punching. I got up and lay on the sofa because I didn't want to accidentally hurt my wife. It was hell. I ended up with maybe 3 hours of sleep before getting up to take my son to school and then straight to work. The best way is to wean off of this. I don't recomment cold turkey and no doctor would either. I got a hold of 40 pills (10mg) today. I gave them to my wife. I will take 3 until Sunday, then 2 for a week, then 1 and so on. I've done it before and it's much easier. Sort of like the end of a roller coaster ride, Disappointed that it's over, but relieved as well and then 5 minutes after you're off the ride completely, you forget about it. Believe me, it'll work. Do it for you and your family. You can contact me anytime and we'll get through it together.
Did you flush the remaining 6 pills? you really need to......the temptation will be too much. Trust me, I've been down this road a 100 times.
CT is hard--but not nearly as hard as being an addict. You can do it. Just flush the pills-be prepared to have the 'flu' for a few days and keep going.
You had a little slip....pick yourself up, dust yourself off and keep going.
Stay strong
greebs
CT is hard--but not nearly as hard as being an addict. You can do it. Just flush the pills-be prepared to have the 'flu' for a few days and keep going.
You had a little slip....pick yourself up, dust yourself off and keep going.
Stay strong
greebs
Dear wannawean,
First, you and I are like millions of others who became addicted to narcos. It's hard to even say it, "ADDICTED," but it wasn't something we planned. I'd like to believe that we underestimated the power of these little oblong shaped pills from the first time we popped one in our mouths and felt the effect. Regardless, we finally admitted that we have a problem and we have to take care of it. I remember when I cleaned up the house at one point and found one on the floor, it felt better than finding a suitcase full of cash. But I finally quit and it lasted about two months and about a month ago, a friend of mine gave me five 10mg pills and I thought "just five wouldn't hurt," but it turned into a habit. I bought some off this friend for $3 each and when that connection disappeared, I started going into the emergency rooms and making up stories about having back pain. I too have a 7 year old son and a wife who'se 5 months pregnant with a little girl. I have to quit for them. My wife already knows when I'm on them because of how calm, relaxed, happy and loving I am after taking them. Today I tried to get off of them, but the depression, the constant yawning, watery eyes and runny nose was too much to handle. I had a doctor's oppointment and scored 30 more, which I'm gonna use to taper down. Let's try it together, and eventually, we'll succeed. My email is ***@****. Feel free to contact me anytime.
Sincerely,
JOHNNIE
First, you and I are like millions of others who became addicted to narcos. It's hard to even say it, "ADDICTED," but it wasn't something we planned. I'd like to believe that we underestimated the power of these little oblong shaped pills from the first time we popped one in our mouths and felt the effect. Regardless, we finally admitted that we have a problem and we have to take care of it. I remember when I cleaned up the house at one point and found one on the floor, it felt better than finding a suitcase full of cash. But I finally quit and it lasted about two months and about a month ago, a friend of mine gave me five 10mg pills and I thought "just five wouldn't hurt," but it turned into a habit. I bought some off this friend for $3 each and when that connection disappeared, I started going into the emergency rooms and making up stories about having back pain. I too have a 7 year old son and a wife who'se 5 months pregnant with a little girl. I have to quit for them. My wife already knows when I'm on them because of how calm, relaxed, happy and loving I am after taking them. Today I tried to get off of them, but the depression, the constant yawning, watery eyes and runny nose was too much to handle. I had a doctor's oppointment and scored 30 more, which I'm gonna use to taper down. Let's try it together, and eventually, we'll succeed. My email is ***@****. Feel free to contact me anytime.
Sincerely,
JOHNNIE
you can do it. im on day 2 of being totally clean from about the same habit as you. for 3 years now i guess... this website is the best and you can do it. you need it. i weened my self down and being only my second day clean i feel great. tomorrow will be even better. my appetite is still messed up and i still get hot and dizzy and crappy feeling every now and then but overall i feel so goooood... stay busy and listen to good music and know a better happier life is less than a week away. i did it and so can you...
The thought that went into each and every post was heart felt...thank you all. I will keep you posted.
that was hardly a tapper you did. do not beat yourself up. at least you did not take them all and that means you are still going forward. and maybe this will help ease the withdrawl a little. you are not starting all over again you are just getting thru the withdrawl. might be a good idea to have someone hold those for you after throwing out at least half of them.
stay on track- you are doing great!
stay on track- you are doing great!
No magic wand just have to keep trying if you mess up try again stay strong and try find some after care
how about setting some charges to those pill bridges, after you flush them?
the american revolutionaries were handily defeated by the red coats,over and over. they were humiliated time and time again. but they never gave up. they never quit trying....
imagine what they went through in the middle of a horrible winter at valley forge? starvation,dysentery and we thought wd's were bad........
not saying its not tough, but with the right mind set.........
the american revolutionaries were handily defeated by the red coats,over and over. they were humiliated time and time again. but they never gave up. they never quit trying....
imagine what they went through in the middle of a horrible winter at valley forge? starvation,dysentery and we thought wd's were bad........
not saying its not tough, but with the right mind set.........
COMMUNITY LEADER
If you want this as bad as you say then flush those remaining pills. You have the power to do that. You are not pathetic at all. You are important, not stupid and not weak. You are an addict. Remember nothing changes if nothing changes. You have it in you to clean up so dig deep and fight like mad. We are here for you. sara
Sometimes you have to fail 2 or 3 times before you make it. This addiction is stronger than all of us. I have gone thru 3 detoxes now and I am at 36 days clean. I wish i could tell you that its been easier for me this time but I am still struggling hard. Everyday I make it tho is a better day (thats what I keep telling myself anyways). The harder you want it the better the chances are that you make it. I dont think there is anyone here that hasnt failed atleast one detox. Dont beat yourself up over your first attempt. Let it drive you to make it the second time around. Its a really hard thing to do but I honestly beleive that life will be better after the struggle is over and if we dont beleive that then its pointless to even try. Get back on that horse and give it another go! Ask for help when you need it and keep a journal to keep you busy. We are all here for one another. We dont judge anyone from there failures because we are all failures at some point.
We have all been there. Don't be so hard on yourself. If we haven't all relapsed at one point or another....then this forum wouldn't be here....nor would all of these people (strangers) that care about you!
Just try to think about why you did it, and try to learn from it. It's okay to feel defeated....but it's also more than okay to feel like you are only human, and we occasionally make mistakes. No biggy. Pick yourself up...dust yourself off...and get back on it.
It's obvious you want it......so, don't just want it....GO GET IT!
Just try to think about why you did it, and try to learn from it. It's okay to feel defeated....but it's also more than okay to feel like you are only human, and we occasionally make mistakes. No biggy. Pick yourself up...dust yourself off...and get back on it.
It's obvious you want it......so, don't just want it....GO GET IT!
Have an Answer?
You are reading content posted in the Addiction: Substance Abuse Community
Is treating glaucoma with marijuana all hype, or can hemp actually help?
If you think marijuana has no ill effects on your health, this article from Missouri Medicine may make you think again.
Julia Aharonov, DO, reveals the quickest way to beat drug withdrawal.
Tricks to help you quit for good.
A list of national and international resources and hotlines to help connect you to needed health and medical services.
Herpes sores blister, then burst, scab and heal.
