recovery, forever?

[rizboy]

In the past month ive realized i cant do any drink or drugs,i cant even smoke cigarettes,because cigarettes lead to alcohol,alcohol leads to weed,and weed would lead to heroin.I have come to terms with the fact i maybe in recovery forever.
Do you think you will recovery so you can have the ocassional drink or whatever?whats your thoughts?

[rizboy]

its a life long battle that i am willing to fit to the bitter end,and i will love every minute.i am glad i made you think momma if i inspired change even better.thanks bama it makes sense what u said.take care peeps,thanks for your input. :)
chris

[rizboy]

i know i am a addict have been for 16 long painful years.but that pain is coming to a end.and recovery is taking place and is becoming my new addiction.my temple is becoming clean,am even gonna give it a refit and new furniture.

[bama88]

riz.....how are you my friend

here's my humble opinion...i am an addict plain and simple. i am an addict that chooses not to get high today. i promise nothing more than that.
i do smoke cigarettes..i think anything that effects our minds ie drive drinking weed coke heroin benzos etc any mind altering substances is a no no for me.
our body is a temple. and we must keep our temple clean ( i know your a Buddhist and respect that). but temple is temple...and i want to stop smoking ciggs....don't want a dirty temple).....and addiction is a disease for life just like high blood pressure diabetes etc. and like most diseases it can be managed...see the thinking. so yes recovery is a lifetime thing....when you get more and more clean time you'll see how you don't need a substance to make you feel good. addicts don't have good coping skills. but thru prayer or chanting and research we can find new ways to deal with lifestyle stress....dose this make sense

[bettermomma]

To quite honest, I'm glad that you said that... lol I was thinking the same thing! I know now, that I have no self control when it comes to "feeling good" I will always be in recovery. I will always have my guard up. I never want to be the person I was while using. God will, to keep me strong, I never wanna turn back. I've struggled with my addiction for 10 + years, and it just takes more will than way for me.

I realize what I've done to myself, my family, and my marriage ... and I am somewhat prepared to fix it ... even if it takes the rest of my life. Thanks Chris, for starting such a good topic. It's made me think... deeply about the rest of my life.


Michelle

[rizboy]

im like you momma i always want more!
Addictive personality!

[rizboy]

Thankyou,interesting posts there folks.
Ill explain further,i started smoking cigarettes at 16 years and loved them,a few weeks later started smoking weed now and then,that quickly turned to everyday with friends,but i always had my own stash aswell.Then along came ecstacy which i loved too!that turned into a thursday,friday and saturday drug, along with weed and alcohol.And i would smoke and drink everyday after work.Then i started smoking weed at work which didnt effect me,people would ring and ask specifically for me to do there electrics.So i thought i was at the top of my game!lol!(how wrong!).And then someone introduced me to heroin,i thought because im respected at work and have a girlfriend car blah blah,it wont happen to me.Then i got hooked to H  and started smoking crack too,and from then on i was on and off heroin,i would drink loads of alcohol and smoke loads of weed to detox or take loads of ecstacy or speed,and then i would relapse.
I would always go round in circles bouncing from drug to drug, then something changed 2 years ago i stayed on subs and have been heroin,crack,benzo,speed and ecstacy free for that peroid.And im now 17 days alcohol,weed and cigarette free!! and i feel amazing just the sub now!
thanks for reading i would love to hear your feedback.
chris

[bettermomma]

Good post Riz! I personally have never had a problem with alcohol or weed or even pain pills... but the second that I did heroin, I was hooked on anything that would give me that kind of high... I was hooked to the needle. My DOC, for about 10 months, was H... I know this sounds awful of me... but I loved H. It was like my dearest friend, until I almost bankrupt my husband's account. Anyway, I chose to detox, for fear I'd lose my family, let alone my life.

The reason, that I'm here today, 43 days sober, is because I thot I could just get high off of iving subs every once in a while... then every other day ... then everyday ... until I was shooting subs 4- 8 times a day. Thru my addiction I have learned that I will always be in recovery! There will never be a time where I can just get high... it will always lead me to want more... sorry such a drawn out comment by it just my own personal opinion. Good topic!

[jenniferbryce]

Hey there, ah man ya know, i used to think that it all lead to the hardest drug, coke and down for me...but truth of the matter is, i got some deep deep scars, and until i started to deal with them, i alwayz ended doin the harder drugs...We seek out the hardest of all, and seem to only learn the hard way...I do totally agree with you about the alcohol, heck yeah it leads to drastic things we cant imagine we ourselves doing...i personally choose not to bother with the alcohol...Now as fer weed, i still smoke and actually alot..im weening off the methadone(nasty sh*t)and it really helps with my pain and to relax...Now the unfotunately there those who have addictive personalities, whether its gambling, drugs,sex,alcohol,shopping, geez anything we can obssess over and call it an addiction...and that truly sux cause then ya gotta stay away from everything....What you figure? Is there some deep crap within' you, or maybe the addictive personality thing? Kick back and ponder yer thoughts, but try not to pick yourself apart...yer not alone, and theres ways around all this addiction stuff...take it easy and breathe...lol  Alwayz here to lend a few minutes, hope to hear back from ya

[soready4]

fwiw i did have 2.5 year clean from my addiction to pills.  pills have been the only thing that got their claws in me, not alcohol, cigs, street drugs.  never got addicted.  
having said that, when i was clean from pills i could have a drink or two when i wanted but i must say it did always light a wee little spark in me.  i never used becuase i drank occasionally but it did give me pause.
i ended up using again when i got cancer and my friends insisted that i not be a hero and take the pain meds.  i KNEW what would happen but jeez with so many people telling me to use.....who could resist?  here i am 4 years later.  still using.  

[MikeInFrance]

speaking for myself, alcohol has ever been an issue for me and it's so rare that I drink it that it doesn't affect me either way. I smoke ciggs/weed too. To many, I know, Thats all bad and some may think it's not possible to have an effective recovery by doing those things but before I used the one and only narcotic of my life I was doing those things and it's definately not the reason I started down that road. I know why I did and it was stupid and God Willing I will never fall in that ditch again.... Good post!