riding the wave into day three

[perchance23]

I have made it past the first 48 hrs and still.going strong. B75 complax from gnc gave me great energy. And went for two short walks today. Didn't get much help from the hylands RLS tablets but potassium did.help.
So yeah for me. 49 hours and keeping on. Keep singing the Doors song. Break on through to the other side.

[perchance23]

One more hour until 72!  That's 3 day.people!   I took a good look at.myself.in the mirror.and actualy saw.myself for the first time in a long time. I am a beautiful wife. Sister. Daughter. Friend. Etc. Thanks everyone.

[perchance23]

I am still hanging on.  One minute at a time....  Looking forward to the 72 hr mark shortly.

[luciddreamrgrl]

I know exactly what the up and down thing is like. Yesterday I felt SO good and today I feel so depressed. And then I feel really Good again and then have a panic attack! It's sooo frustrating. But this board has helped me to realize that this is all normal for what we are going through and it will pass. Keep strong and it's ok to feel sad or cry. You'll get through it. I have faith in you.

[atthebeach]

hey hun, you are not alone we are here.
be encouraged. everything is going to be alright.
keep looking up. go girl go. you are breaking free of the chains and bondage of addiction.
did you take a walk?
dont stress out about the vitamins, they are supposed to help you not cause more stress.
you lean on your husband , he is there to support you.
hugs
debbie

[perchance23]

OK I am going to rant here because I feel sorry for myself and you are the only ones right now that I can talk to.  I am still fighting the fight.  No desire to take a pill, none, but I feel so bad emotionally right now.  I am a smart women, and somehow I tricked myself into thinking this was ok.  I knew, part of me knew that I was going down the wrong path but I just couldn't stop it.  The big wake up call was running out of my meds too soon and going through hell until I could get that refill.  I never want to be tied to anything like that again!  I want to choose how I feel. Sometimes today the grass does seem alittle greener and sometimes I just feel so crappy.  Keeping up with the vitamins and such but it's so hard.  I am at almost 67 hours and holding.  I can clean to a couple of friends but none that I can really call right now and reach out to.  I just needed to tell someone!  Thanks!  And need some cheerleaders!

[perchance23]

Is it ok to use the xanax once in awhile?   I have heard so many horror stories. I have used half a dose yesterday and none today. When does it.become on issue?

[perchance23]

My husband is not an addict. He has held my hand and gave me lots of hugs and support. Day three is not fun but its almost over. Anyone know how long hydro stays un your system?  I am exhausted from fighting this fight but I keep telling myself Just Keep Going. JUST keep going. Im gonna nap and let.my body rest. Laters.

[snakejones]

Hang on tight, sweetie! I am so proud of you. Almost getting to the 72-hour mark is HUGE!
To answer your question, any husband that loves his wife will be happy for her and with her after such a huge boost in quality of life, health, and confidence that comes with quitting a drug. Unless he is an addict and is still using. I hope that is not the case. Got to go out for a little while. I'll be back to check on you again soon. xox

[atthebeach]

you are fighting and you are winning. you  are doing great.
keep your mind and your body busy.
remember dont let the fear in, chase away those thoughts.
your husband loves you and he will continue to love you.
take it one step at a time, minute by minute,hour by hour, dont worry about tomorrow or next week.
there is lots of hope.
keep the faith.
hope,trust,believe
hugs and prayers
debbie

[perchance23]

Still fighting the good fight.  Of course I flushed all of my temptation and worked with my doc so no refills or secret stashes. I see glimmers of hope. I have fears of the person I will be without the meds. Will my husband love the person I become?  

[perchance23]

Thanks so much. I am forcing myself to do normal things. We are even going to the store today. So which day is the worst. 62 hrs in and still fighting.

[dominosarah]

Good job on the walk!  You can do this!

[perchance23]

I went for a walk and feel 100 times better. You just have to force yourself if nothing else.

[dominosarah]

Try soaking in a warm bath, that usually helps for awhile.  Keep up the short walks too.  You are doing great so keep it going~~

Congrats!!

[perchance23]

But I just have to.keep going.

[perchance23]

Day 3 is becoming a disaster. Creepy crawly. So.much anxierty.

[luciddreamrgrl]

I have great respect for people who can go through withdrawals and still live their normal lives. I did it once before and it was a nightmare. I'm surprised I didn't get fired! lol. So keep up the good work and I'm rooting for you :)

[perchance23]

Thanks so much. I slept pretty good last night. Woke up a couple of times.   Feeling anxious this morning. Let's hope it passes soon. Have to go to a training class tomorrow.  Pray for me.

[snakejones]

I'm proud of you and excited for you, too. Good job, girl! Keep up the good work and post lots! We are all pulling for you. Yayyyyy!!!!!!