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[mommy2teens]

Hi all!

im sooooo scared, im 28 weeks pregnant, and been on 10/325 of percocet 3 x's a day, i have managed to ween myself down to 1 and 1/2 a day. I WANT TO STOP! i been reading a lot of posts on here, i just been scared to post anything. I'm scared for my baby, and I'm scared to tell my doctor in fear he'll have my baby taken away from me. My mind is racing 24/7 about this, i feel like such a piece of s*** sooooo worried i hurt my baby. Please someone give me some advise. I know I'm gonna be judged like I'm a horrible person :(

[mommy2teens]

Thank you all for sharing your experiences/advise and kind (nonjudgmental) words. I really thought i was alone. I'm doing really well with tapering, down to 1/2 as of today, I'm not experiencing bad withdraws,  only a little tired, and R.L.S. but that could be from being pregnant. It really does get easier everyday, and i found that taking 1/2 at a time instead of one whole one really helps. I never imagined how quickly addiction can take control of my life, and this happened shortly before i became pregnant. What baffles me though is how easily it came to me to stop alcohol completely when i found out, but kicking these 3 pill habit is such a battle. I need to stay away from certain people who have made the access way to easy, and way to tempting. My new baby, and my family deserve way better than this, and I'm willing to humble myself, and do what i have to do for them. I'm so glad i found this sight, and glad to meet you all on here ♥  

[embarresed83]

I understand exactly what your going through. I was taking 6 to 8 10/500  hydrocodones a day when i found out i was pregnant. I couldnt kick the habbit and never got the courage to tell my doctor. It was an absolute living hell my entire pregnancy. I worried every time i had to give a urine sample that they would do a drug test, but they never did. Ive never hated myself so much in my life. When i went into labor i was terrified not knowing if something was going to be wrong with the baby. I too was afraid that if the dr's knew they would take my baby from me. But by the grace of God i had a perfectly healthy beautiful baby boy. Its still really hard to live with myself for doing that and I still havent stopped taking the pills.
The best thing to do is tell your dr but I just wanted to let you know that theres other people out there with the same problems. Being an addict really is a disease and i pray to God one day ill find the strength to overcome it. I dont deserve my kids and they definatly dont deserve to have a drug addict for a mommy, so Im really gonna try to change my ways. I hope you can do the same.

[hiskidd]

Talk to your doctor. Tell him/her everything. This is a great site, but this is a big deal. Praying for you!

[missfiveday]

Speak to a dr, they know the best way to deal with these kinds of situations.  There is the possibilty it can cause birth defects, or even addiction in your baby, so the sooner you can work things out with a drs help, the better for you and your child.  There are some medications that are safe to take while pregnant, so speak to your dr.

[dominosarah]

Thank you for your post~~~

[New2This2010]

Hey sweetie, sorry to hear about your situation, hope I can help. I am in the SAME situation. I was/am addicted to Hydro's and became preg. I kept it a secret from my OB at first and just kept taking them, finally I broke down in tears and told him the truth and that I was addicted to them and couldn't just stop. (At first he'd ask me if I was taking any meds and I lied n said yes hydro for dental work and he was all "ok well just stop", and I wouldn't say anything. Finally at my like 5th visit I told him the truth). He was VERY grateful I was honest with him and did not get mad and judge me or call CPS and now I am on a taper plan to get off them before baby is born in Apr. The truth will get you a LOT further than hiding trust me I tell you this from my own experience. If you do not come clean you can run the risk of having CPS called when baby is born with it in his/her system. I wish the best for you, but please talk to someone soon ok, plus they can take better care of you knowing. As an addict as horrible as it sounds I sure knew to take my damn hydro everyday but sometimes I forgot my prenatels and I hate myself for it. Just be up front and you will get the help you need! take care sweetie