help please im scared and feel very alone trying to figure out how to come off hydrocodone

[gottastop2787]

I am 21 years old in march of 2010 i had a total hysterectomy and that has done alot to my body and moods but i have bben taking hydrocodone for the last year everyday i only take about 6-8 10 mg hydrocodone a day I have had heart problems for the last 6 months abnormal rythems and all that i am not sure if that is caused from my hysterectomy and my hormones not being right or if it is caused by the tens...but i am spending way to much money on them and i feel like i cant do anything with out them everytime i always wanna quit i always talk myself out of it by saying well i gotta take them cause i have to go to work or to clean my house so on and so on ... I have a 4 year old and a 3 year old and i am just tired of throwing my money way down the drain i want off of them now.. No one knows that i take them so going into a rehad or anything like that is not an option because no one can know about my problem if they did it would not be good.. So i am gonna try and do this own my own.. I am out of pills but i have liquid lortab sooo my question is how should i taper bk or should i just quit cold turkey... I have alot of blood pressure problems to it stays hight i guess because of my heart i have blood pressure meds so do i need to take them while coming off of the hydrocodone and i also got klonopin do i need to take that as well I just dont want anything to happen to me i guess that is my biggest thing i am scared because of the way my body is now (HEART, etc ) I will be fine right??????????? about two weeks ago i went one whole day with out any pills or anything and i felt crazy in the head i was fumbling through papers at work i just could not function is DAY ONE THE WORST please tell me it is SOMEONE PLEASE HELP I HAVE TO DO THIS I DONT WANNA BE THIS WAY ANYMORE I AM TIRED OF MAKING MYSELF THINK THAT I AM OKAY WHEN I KNOW THAT I AM NOT>>>>> THANKS ALOT

[Resilient_Mimi]

I would talk to a MD about getting on suboxone, it is for opiate addition.  I wouldn't cold turkey quit.  U need to walk your self down, from 10's to 7.5's then to 5's.  If you can.  Also try to only take 6 a day, that is it!!! make yourself!! Some of this is in your head, so be STRONG!! Us woman know what we can do!! I have great faith in the LORD and he is just a prayer away!!  You have already had this conversation with yourself and you know that you have a problem, you can get thru this, maybe you need to tell someone, then you can have a support system on your team! Good luck!

[dominosarah]

Hi and welcome.  

Are you getting the meds from a doctor?  With your heart issues you really need to be monitored while coming off these.               sara