so sad

[hiddenme]

So I was doing a taper and messed that up when I was having severe cramps. I was on here in March and if u don't remember I had a miscarriage. With that said my cramps were pretty intense with it being the first cycle since the loss. Well I am now on hour 30 of being perc free! I loaded up with all the natural supplements and imodium. I'm at work and I don't feel horrible...I'm just soooooooo sad. I should be happy but I'm just very sad.

[sudie58]

that is a good idea, i found the counseling the best help for me, and i am sure it will do you good also, good luck,

[hiddenme]

I don't use alcohol or any other drug...just pills. I don't know how I feel about na...only because I don't want anyone to find out. I have a select few who know this part of me. The last time I called a counseling center they told me that I needed to detox first so I think I will give them a call and try that route again.

[sudie58]

i had counseling, it was a great help, i also went to some NAmeetings, they were ok, all of it helped. i do think aftercare is very important, i relapsed a few times before getting some, i wasnt trying to think i was clever enough not to need it, i just didnt realise how sneaky this addiction disease really is! i really wish you well.

[NoOC123]

Hey,
Good job for trying again, have you tried anything before for aftercare? Maybe like AA or NA meetings? Although do you plan on being completely 100% sober from everything, even alcohol, or just sober from the pills? because AA and NA programs work around 100% sobriety. You can also try getting a therapist/ counselor. I do think AA works well for some people, it is free and people are there to help you 24/7. You can find a meeting and go to one and see how you feel about it.

[hiddenme]

I'm going to do it this time...I'm going to stay clean. I want nothing more than to be free. I'm going to look into after care....what worked best for you?

[sudie58]

welcome back, its good you are getting clean again, its not suprising you are sad, these pills mess our heads up, and you have been through such a lot, and you are also mourning your loss, i really feel for you, time is a great healer, as my old gran used to say!! look after yourself, god bless.