stuck in the middle....

[Spike2654]

shew...ok, I've hit a rough patch. I am done with the physical wd symptoms (at least the ones I can actually 'feel', know my body will take longer to heal overall), but I haven't got to the point where I am mentally feeling good if that makes sense. I feel like I'm stuck in the grey "blah" zone of not having physical symptoms but not feeling very good either. I'm keeping up with my vitamins, taking brisk walks and almost sleeping 6 hours at night...got my counselor on speed dial, I feel like I'm doing the right things, just really hate this stretch of road I'm on right now. Just seem drained all of a sudden. Not that I would trade going back to the first week (I'm at 34 days), or want a pill, just feel like a kite flying in the wind with nobody holding onto the string...really hope this is normal and will pass.

[Spike2654]

HA! That's exactly what I've been thinking...that I've done permanent damage to myself, that I will never "feel" happy again without opiates, that I'm doomed to dull living...psssh, soooo know that's my addiction talking, and I've told it to shut up!! it really does help knowing that this is normal and others have gone through it and are on the other side enjoying life and truly smiling!

[motye51]

This part actually scared the **** out of me b/c I thought maybe I had "damaged" my brain!!!!  lol, of course I know I didn't but I sure did HATE being in my head!  Totally normal, totally normal, and I find the more you hear that, the better it gets to know it's normal!  I put headphones in my ears and blared music when I couldn't take it anymore!  I sang, danced, blah, blah, anything to get out of my head!  Also, started going to meetings in my area which helped me get out of my head, and also helped me to know that I am DEFINATLY not alone!  Keep pushing through it!

[Sweetness91]

I hated it when ppl told me to "keep myself busy"....I didn't wanna keep myself busy...hell....I didn't wanna do ANYTHING! Lol. But I did find that if I drug myself out of the house and took a walk on the beach, or went with the hubby and played pool, that I felt so much better during and afterwards. Playing pool was an old, and very much loved hobby of mine. I even won a trip to Vegas with the APA back in 99' for "Top Woman" in our state competition...way before the pills of course. Getting back into it now has been fun...and I've been thinking of joining another team. So, if you have one of those hobbies that you've always loved, but kinda got out of, now is the time for a refresher! Things we love to do keep us busier and happier than trying to do mundane things that only pass time. If you really enjoy what you're doing, it makes life just a little bit better.  I really think it could help you get outta this funk...because it seems you're doing everything else the right way...i.e...vitamins etc. I wish you the best of luck and hope you start feeling better soon :)

[Pjtwenty]

It's definitely normal. You are doing all the right things. Maybe try some new hobbies. Or something exciting.
Great job!

[Spike2654]

Thank you so much! I can see where this is the danger zone because it's hard to really 'care' about anything right now...so, that's why I'm posting and set up an appointment with my counselor. it's refreshing to know that this is normal and WILL pass.

[ariley13]

This is very common and it will pass. This is the danger zone for most people and when most relapses happen. You start feeling better physically, but the emotional, mental stuff and 'blahness' become overwhelming. You feel like you will never feel 'normal' again. You will. i promise that. It sounds like you are setting yourself up for success. Having the therapists # on speed dial is a great idea. Coming on here and posting is great too. All too often (and I'm super guilty of this too!) we isolate when things are the hardest and we should be reaching out for help and support.  The exercise, vitamins, and healthy eating will help you heal more quickly and get back to normal too. Hang in there and keep fighting this. You are doing great. No going back now!