going on 48

[all_alone1]

So I am sitting here just crying like a baby.....how am I going to get trough the day. I don't have the physical but the mental is kicking me in the ***. I took my son to school this morning his comment( mom are you sick you look nappy today drink something so you can feel better) if he only knew. I sat in the bathroom fighting with myself not to drink something to make me feel better.and I didn't...drink anything that is.

[littlebit667]

Where are you girl???  We love you and want to see you!!!!!

Gnarly, my daughter goes by Kat!!!

[gnarly_1]

JUST wanted to add my wife Kat has 23yr clean with nothing but the power of Jesus so it does work........Gnarly

[ricart70]

angel where are you?Hope everything is ok.

[snakejones]

Hi there, honey, just checking on you. Please write and let us know what's happening. We are very attached to you, you know.

[Innerstrength67]

Yea girl, I agree with Ganrly 100%. Addiction thrives on secrecy. I'm sure your hanging in there but just post.
We have to keep it real. Sometimes I feel like no one wants to hear me whining about my cravings but everyone justs want to help.

[gnarly_1]

HI  this is not a time to withdraw you need to start taking about what your feeling this is not ez no mater how you do it but isolating is only going to make things worst we all want to help but you got to let us in hang in there every day your not using your 1 day closer to getting well I wii watch for your post...,,,,,,Gnarly

[jlannaa]

trust me girl i know how you feel about the crying its been 21 day for me and i only cried once yesterday compared to even the  day before but when i thought things this is hard and anybody would be emotional especially what you are going through but keep your head up and i know everyone says keep busy and exercise and pray in what you believe in and  it really works here i am with 21 days, have a good day sweetie :)

[gnarly_1]

WHERE you at Girl havent seen you all day please post to let us know your doing ok I know its been a ruff day but YOU CAN DO THIS just stick it out things will look better as time goes by you have been covering up a lot of emotions with those pills and now there coming out let it out I will look for your post in the morning good luck and God bless.......Gnarly

[ImDONENoMore]

I know angel - this is hard.  So freaking hard.

Find something to do - watch a movie, do a load of laundry, clean a closet, whatever - activity will help with the anxious feeling and the sadness too.  And sleep - so it's definitely worth a shot.

I'm sorry - I wish you could fast forward through this - but I don't thik we're supposed to - that way we never forget right?  Hang in I promise you it gets BETTER.  (btw your son sounds like a doll you're very lucky - and now he will be too because you're BACK - even with a frown it's better to be present than vacant inside with some stupid false smile on our face.)

[marycarmel]

Good job on dumping the leftover pills.  They would just keep calling to you.  I'm hoping your withdrawals aren't too bad since you tapered down, but regardless, hydration is super important.  I know I couldn't tolerate OJ, too acidic for me (and I usually love it.)  Plain water didn't work either.  I did a lot of flavored water and coke seemed to help when my stomach was upset.

You can do this!!!  You've made some fantastic choices and you stuck with your taper.  Each minute you are a minute closer to your end goal!!!

[snakejones]

I'm doing great today--trying to ignore housework, LOL! This forum is a wonderful tool to do that!
Your son is absolutely precious. He is concerned for his mama and loves you so much, you can tell. You are the richest woman in the world with those children of yours, and you are God's daughter of the morning--an infinitely precious being who deserves all the blessings you have had and will have in days to come. When you are depressed, hold your head high like the King's daughter you are, and walk out of that house and find something to do that will make you happy. You richly deserve all the happiness you can hold!

[gnarly_1]

good to see you making it ya emotions run high but in the end it will be worth your sobriety just remember your brain chemistry is all out of wack and will be for a wile you will make it threw it just hang in there if you can find someone to watch the kids a N/A meeting would be a healthy choice
keep pushing forwawd your going to make it ,,,,YOU CAN DO THIS good luck and God bless.......Gnarly

[all_alone1]

Thanks snakejones how are you doing?

[snakejones]

Hang in there, girl! Your many friends here aren't behind you--we're shoulder to shoulder with you every step of the way.

[all_alone1]

Sorry I am not myself today. Thank you mary, innerstrenght67, and ricart70 for responding to my posts you are all great.

[ricart70]

Great job.That will make it easier on you knowing that they are not there.Way to go.Hang in there and you will be on day 3 soon!

[all_alone1]

I did but just tossed them in the toliet just in case the temptation got too bad. Those were left over from the taper.

[ricart70]

You don't have any pills lying around the house do you?

[all_alone1]

Got to sleep at 3 woke up at 9.

[Innerstrength67]

Just take it one hour at a time. It's hard but you know that going back isn't going to fix anything.
I agree with Mary about aftercare.

[ricart70]

Oh ok...Cause he sees you washing down the pills with water.Just stay with it.The feeling bad is not really avoidable.How are you sleeping?

[all_alone1]

Pills I did drink a whole glass of orange juice.....too much water hurts my stomach.

[ricart70]

Hi angel,sorry you are feeling bad.What did you mean by I didn't drink anything...that is.

[marycarmel]

Have you looked into some kind of aftercare?  This is where it gets to people, the mental part can be really hard.  You need some support in real life.  This forum is a lifesaver, but it can't do everything.  I hope you'll try to look into some type of aftercare.  There are many to choose from:  AA/NA, counseling, etc.  You've done fantastic so far; don't let it get thrown away.